This Year (2010)

This yr has been the worst yr of my life. So much death n tragedy... So many friends and family lost...Skool has been kicking my ass literally...But through it all i come out with u guys in the end...You guys have laughed with at me or about me, listened 2 me rant and rave about many a things...You guys have been my therapy and for that i thank each n everyone of ya...Without ya i would have surely gone crazy (ya no it run in my family lol...no for real though it does)...So from the bottom of heart (that sounds bad don't it lol...scratch that) from my heart lol thank u :-) !!! Happy New Year!!

My Dream that can neva be...

I woke up this morning crying becuz of a dream i had. Not becuz it was scary but becuz it will neva come true...I thought if i told u guys i would stop crying n pull myself 2gether but its not working becuz i'm crying while i'm writing this...My dream was about me making plans with my godson's mother about his future... I remember him as a baby becuz thats wat he was the last time i saw him. I was telling her I'm in college now working so I'll be able to take care of him. I'm gonna start the paper work next yr so he can come 2 America n be with me. I was gonna send her a laptop so they could video chat its better than talking on the phone. I told her don't worry I love u, I'm gonna take care of you n him...Ya won't need for nothing. In the back round i here her telling him see ur nenane loves u so u better be good for her wen u go 2 america. We were both so happy with that plan then i wake up n remember that shes gone n he's gone n my plan can neva be becuz they died in the earthquake in haiti...I miss them so much...

Catch up

We had the killer snow storm most of sunday into monday morning... i woke up n couldn't even open the door. I love the snow but i can't even enjoy it becuz i'm sick fml. I got some good presents for xmas wat about u guys?  Did i mention that i been trapped in my house for the past 3 days...Lol not that i wanted to go anywhere in particular but this is just ridiculous...

My crush still hasn't hit me up. At this point i'm ok with it time 2 move on, life goes on. I'm not gonna put my life on hold becuz of this one dude. I only got one life to live and i'm not wasting another day on him... if somebody actually wants me for me then i'm ready to give them a chance...In the words of keri hilson "...my love has a limit..." (I love her songs breaking point and pretty girl rock by the way lol)  and baby mine has jus reached it, so its on to the next one lmao...So thats that ya... leave ya opinion...

So another thing is apparently i have a sign on my head that says all young boys apply here. All these boys looking to get "experience" seem 2 want me...News flash boys i have none so go find ur self a real cougar. Personally I'm not into younger guys but all these high skool kids think i'm the latest trend...I'm 19 guys i jus look 15 it not my fault I'm short n girls today r over developed... I no i said somebody who wants me for me but really god...u got jokes lol...Wat ya think of all this? leave ya opinion

Yaaay it's christmas

Merry christmas ya!!!! Yes i'm excited cuz i do love presents but i also luv 2 give...I'm finally done shopping woooo! I started so late this yr i didn't no if i was gonna make it... I like surpassed my shopping budget by $80 but at least it was all cash no credit for me (unless u count the money i'm gonna borrow from my parents lol ;-) ) Omg guess wat i got my self (yes i do buy myself a present every yr lol... becuz I'm special) I got a giant pajamas the ones wit the feet like the toddlers. I been looking for those everywhere although i'm not that tall could not find one that fit. So anyway I found them 2day a Macy's n i was jumping around like a 5 yr old. I plan 2 rock these babies on New Years eve. I'm going 2 be very warm n comfortable lol... So wat ru guys doing for the holidays?

I'm done

Finally done wit the semester from hell yaaaaaay. I did pretty good for the most part. Now i can sit beck and relax for a few weeks :-). I'm still not finished christmas shopping (I no i'm late but i'm broke ppl) lol probably gonna finish that some time this week in between my naps lol. Still don't know my plans for news yrs yet but i'm staying up for sure...wat ru guys up 2 for the holidays?

Guess wat?

I got the job guys yaaaaay...lol just wanted 2 let ya guys know im gonna be making that paper lol jk. Its a really good job cuz i can work there after i graduate and its a really good hospital...Did i mention that the guys r hot lol?  (Yes I am holding out for my crush but i can still browse ;-) lol. He hasn't hit me up by the way...) Just in case u guys were wondering... So wats up with u guys any exciting news?

The worst week ever...

I can't believe u gone...I remember us all playing around in elementary skool...hERE 2DAY GONE 2mrw another one of my fellow classmates gone... R.I.P. we'll see u a again in that skool in the sky...:-(

Life is too short...

I just found out that my former class mate from high skool died this morning.He left behind a young son, girlfriend, family and friends. His life was taken all a too quickly.U realize that life is not a game and u can't live it that way. R.I.P  and my prayers go out to his family I hope he's smiling down on ya from heaven...

Pray for me ya...

I have two finals 2mrw. The first one is at 8am and its a hundred fucking questions (WTF). Idk if i can pass this i got get a 94  just to pass this class. Everybody "seems" to have faith in me except me. Nursing really kills ur confidence... I was always the smart girl n now i jus feel plain stupid n like im jus a plain girl. My looks are ok but my smartness is wat i had going for me u no...Theres like nothing left except maybe my hair...The other is in the night time which isnt bad im gonna go home an go to sleep in btw. Its an essay about twilight so that isn't bad at all. How r ya guys finals? Am I the only one who's being screwed over by college?

Anthem

My new anthem is firework by katy perry... I think it speaks to a lot teens n plan ppl in general. Truly inspiring words written from someone who is supposedly a "bitch" not my words... But it really touches my heart and it gives me hope for tomorrow. It just wat shy ppl need to come out of their shells (including me). Its about new beginnings and acceptance i'm all for it lol. Best line in the whole song "...Maybe the reason y all the doors r closed, so u could open one that leads u to the perfect road..." if that doesn't hit u idk wat will. Tell me wat u think...

Video chats

I just got an oovoo n a skype (its my laptops fault lol) i gotta admit it was fun the one and only time i used it. I talked 2 one of my bffs who i haven't seen in a while. Its the next best thing to having the person there. I think its like the best new idea since the ipod touch lol. I'm very technology oriented n i'm a total gadget geek, wat about u guys?

A week

I decided to leave dude a message. I left my name and number and i give him a week 2 call back. By this time next week if he hasn't called i'll take it as a sign that it's time to move on. I'll know that i did everything in my power to make it happen. You can't force something thats not there. If he does call back thats still not a definite but I cross that bridge if and when i get to it. I let you guys no how it works out...

Drained mentally and physically

Idk wat it is about this semester or these past like 3 or 4 months but i can't get a break... i feel like i'm being drained like a sponge but its life getting sucked out of me not water. I miss simpler times, as a matter of fact i miss the summer all i did was read, watch tv, go to the library and work. Life was simple now idk wat 2 expect or wats expected of me. I'm so tired not being enough or not giving enough...

Do i leave a message...

So yesterday i finally got the guts to call this dude (this dude being my crush) and it either rings or goes to voicemail. One of my friends is like maybe u should leave a message cuz most ppl won't pick up a number they don't know. I'm bad at leaving messages n plus how do i no that he'll get it... So here's my new problem: Do I leave a message or jus stop calling?

Crasy ass dog

Tell me y im driving minding my on business bumping to the radio...When this big ass police looking dog scared the living shit out of me. It came up right next to my car running side by side trying to get in front of my car. Mind u that i was going that fast but i hit the breaks mad quick...I luv dogs if i would have hit it, that would have broke my heart i don't think i would be able 2 drive any more. I'm all about caring for animals and ppl this is y im studying nursing lol. What crazy ass dogs live in ur neighborhood? I wanna hear about it lol.

My long time Crush...Can u solve my dilemma?

So if u read my my earlier ( College life at home: My BFF & College life at home: To no one in particular...) posts then u no that my crush was mentioned but not known and i said that i would explain... Ok I'm the kind of girl that when i like i'm really into u and only u. You have and hold my full attention. I think other guys r cute but my heart isn't really in it. So my crush is from way back in elementary skool. I had a crush on him since the 4th grade. The first time i saw him, he was rounding up his lil brothers and sisters (he has alot of them lol) to go home after skool. He was being all nice and sweet with them i jus looked at him and thought "damn, he is so cute and he would make a really great dad..." Y am i thinking about having kids at 9 yrs old is beyond me lol. Then i met him in the fifth grade (that was a good yr) n he was as nice i thought he would be. Basically i liked him he like me and we just never got together. One of my best friends at the time let it slip that i had gone thru puberty. He asked me if i wanted to have his babies which had me speechless for a moment but then i cursed him out.I look back on that and still laugh, lmao. He asked me 2 my fifth grade prom (the only guy to ever ask me) which was so sweet but i didn't even go to prom (i really regret not going). When we had our graduation rehearsals he got jealous of the guy i was walking with (if that doesn't make u go awww then nothing will lol). After our fifth grade graduation we took pictures n he gave me a kiss on the cheek. I was totally shocked cuz my dad was right there... I had 2 act disgusted 2 keep up appearances lol but it was a good surprise. He  was soooo sweet.


By this point we talk on the phone almost daily n his mom is tired of me calling his house lol but she's nice about it. We went 2 the same middle skool but hardly saw each other in skool but when i did see him it was good times. We would hang after skool in front of our old skool while picking up younger siblings. This is the time we started hugging evytime we saw each other lol. Then around 7th grade he took some summer classes so he could go back to his rightful grade. He was a yr older then me n got either left back or they messed up his papers wen he came to the U.S. Anyway i only saw him after skool senior yr of middle skool cuz he was already in his first yr of high skool. Then i didn't see him or his siblings for like a straight month. When i asked him about it, he didn't answer so i dropped it. (Come to find out yrs l8a that his dad left his mom for another women. They got into an argument he ends up killing her (the girlfriend not the wife). I'm really mad that he didn't tell me i thought that we were close at the time but i digress.) So anyway back to the story, then after i graduate n go to high skool i gotta take the bus back to my sisters skool pick them up and go home. By this time i get there he's always already gone. So i missed seeing him that was our hang time. So one day i get off the bus to walk to the skool and i hear someone calling me. I look around and its him he sat there and waited for me. I was so surprised so we started talking or watever. Then he goes "u not gonna give me my hug?" I'm like i thought i was the only one who liked us hugging but apparently i was wrong. I wasn't even thinking about that i was jus happy to see him. He had to take the bus but didn't wanna leave so he let the first bus go by but the second bus came right after it so he really had to leave. 


So it basically was like and unsaid tradition for us to hang out after graduations whether it be ours or our siblings its always an interesting experience lol.So during 9th grade i find out that im moving and i finally tell him after my sister n his brother's graduation. I was basically hanging out with him and his whole family. He didn't believe me at first but when i kept repeating it i guess it settled in. I had a regents 2 take that afternoon n evytime i was like i gotta go he was like wait jus 5 more minutes u can take the next bus... It got to the point where i only had 30 mins to get to the skool wen it usually takes me an hour becuz of this boy. I was really weighing the pros and the cons of staying and talking to him rather then taking this test. So when its finally time for me to leave we exchange numbers and i give him a big hug. This is gonna sound really corny but i still have the paper that he wrote his number on and its like 4 almost most five yrs l8a (thats either dedication or creepy u tell me). I haven't seen him since that day tried calling him but his phone got disconnected. Then i find out a couple months l8a that he had moved 2. Ok so i jus found out about wat his dad did n even though its none of my business i'm mad he didnt tell i thought we were close if ur going thru something and ur my friend i wanna do evything i can to help....Anyway get this now my sister is friends with his brother  n jus got into contact with his brother has the number and evything. So do i call him n see wats good or do i let go of the past and move on? So this is the one that i lost that i never really had...So only like my closest friends no the whole story about him n now u do 2... leave ur comment n tell me ur honest opinion cuz i could really use it...

Tyrese

I like totally love this dude his music speaks to me... If a guy said half of the things he wrote about to his girl or a girl that he likes, there is no reason for him to be single I'm jus say lol

Tyrese - What Am I Gonna Do

What's your favorite movie quote?

Oh sweet baby jesus lol (stolen from kelly)

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What YouTube video made you laugh recently?

gay drop it low...lmao them boys r better then any girls!!

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What's the furthest you've ever traveled?

I went to haiti idk how far away that is lol

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If you could go on vacation for the next month with an unlimited budget, where would you go?

i would go all over europe

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Professors that can't teach

Some ppl can either teach or they cant. If u get bad reviews evy yr n nobody nos wat the hell ur talking about, don't u think its time u find a new profession. I mean y put students who bust there butts 4 ur class n pay god nos how much for tuition a yr the heart ache of failing a class wen its obvious that u cant teach... quit while ur not a head. How is it wen u explain something students end up more confused then wen they started. Please don't do us any favors by "teaching" us. No one is benefiting from it... except u but ur a nurse there are plenty of other jobs, cuz teaching is not 4 u... If u didn't no b4 u no now... Idk if u guys have professors like that? If u do leave a comment...

Weird guy

So today i had n hr to kill b4 i had 2 go 2 tutoring so i jus sat down at a table (they have little chill spots wit tables all over campus) like right across from the bathroom n stairs theres also an office right next to it. Basically ppl r always comin n goin all the time. This dude comes n sits like right across from me im like watever its a public place but this dude like stares at me for like 30 minutes. I have on headphones n im reading a book the hair on the back of my neck is like on end. I really thought he was gonna try 2 attack me on the elevator while i was leaving...The creepiest thing ever!!

My BFF

I finally seen my bff after months basically of not talking n not c each other. I made like a last minute stop to her house after getting my hair done. We were excited to c each other we got to chat a little becuz i had work n couldn't stay (which got canceled by the way but thats another story...) as long as i had wanted. I told her some news about my long time crush/friend (who i'm trying 2 get over I'll explain later...) had some major family issues that i'm jus finding out about...Anyway she was shocked i was shocked it was jus shocking news. We also talked about her new bf but i'm still trying to get the lowdown on that one lol. It was jus nice seeing her like old times. She said that she would call me but we'll have to wait n c on that one all i no is that if she don't make the effort then i won't either...like i said b4  i run out of thread so if things need to be patched up it won't be me doing the work... By the way Happy thanksgiving I no i'm mad late lol!

What kind of music can you just not stand to listen to?

techno its so annoying 2 me

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If you could change one thing that happened last year what would it be?

Actually going 2 prom wit a specific person...

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What's your favorite genre of music?

R&B

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To no one in particular...

Excuse me ya I jus gotta put this out there... I just found out wat you didn't tell me. I thought i was ur friend but i c now that it wasn't true. I only wanted to help, to be ur shoulder to cry on. I wouldn't have rejected u do u really think i'm that shallow? I miss u everyday i jus wish u came 2 me...But u couldn't, y was neva clear to me. You've hurt me probably more then you'll ever no... I guess its not meant to be. I have to let u go now obviously i held on to long. Your out of my heart now i gotta be strong. I'll find someone who deserves me, a place I BELONG...

What's your earliest memory?

Opening the door 2 our apartment i was like 1or 2 yrs old

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How would you describe yourself in 3 words?

quiet, sarcastic, dreamer

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If you could go back in time 10 years and tell your younger self something, what would it be?

He's worth it...

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What one thing are you exceptionally bad at?

umm making friends i thought i would grow out of it but as u can c i'm still short lmao

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What would be the best thing about being a vampire?

mind reading

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What was your favorite book as a child?

I didnt like books i was all about the movies lol

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Bring back the 90's R&B

Ok last night i was listening to some Tyrese (he is so damn fine...anyway) and it made me feel so good (get ur mind out the gutter) I mean in the sense that the words came from some place deep. Like he means every word he's saying and it comes from the heart... So i got to thinking do i feel that way becuz i think he's hot or is it becuz of the music. I did a lil experiment to test my theory so i listened 2 other artists from the 90s like tank, R.L., Ginuwine...u get the picture and the result was the music is way better. There was no degrading of women it was all about how women make them feel, how they fell in love, how they thought they were meant to be. Songs that u wanna make out to or like the old folks say "baby making music". Feel good music its not about how much money they make or if they have a big house... Idk if its my ripe old age of 19 lol, but i find myself moving farther away from todays music. Its so damn repetitive i feel like there is no new music all new songs are a remake of another song from earlier times that ppl have forgot or haven't heard in a while. This is my opinion...Wat do ya think?

Remember me

I dont no if u guys have seen this movie yet but its so idk unexplainable. Its such a good movie u jus get sucked into like a vortex and u can't get out till the end. It puts ur whole life into  perspective...It also puts Robert Pattinson  into a new light u really see how good an actor he is...Its not a sappy chick flick (jus in case u were wondering lol) but it has depth. My favorite part in the whole movie is when robert meet the girl (ally)...anyway if u have seen it i really want ur honest opinion cuz i honestly think its one of the best movies I've ever seen. If haven't seen it u should check it out, then leave a comment lol.

The job interview among other things...

The job interview went pretty good I think cuz i got a second one lol. The pay is not bad and i work with a partner I hope its somebody nice (if i get the job). The guys are off the chain what more can i ask for wink wink... I think i passed my nursing 209 test but u neva no wit these ppl. Although i did jus fail my im module (Inter muscular injections) they make things so complicated for no reason and then nobody wants 2 help you out, i have to take it again on sunday at least i no wat i'm doing now. The good news is that i have the next 5 days off from skool thank god i was really contemplating smacking someone in dat skool... Idk maybe the time away will change my mind but i doubt it. Did i mention the guys lol i jus thought that i would repeats that lol...i think i should have like a weekly thing about wat bothers me n u guys too. Wat ya think? You guys can pick the name of it lol...let me no!!

Friendship

Its funny how u don't think you've changed until u realize that u don't have the same friends and ur not in the same company... I hardly talk 2 my best friend of like six yrs. We didn't have a fight or anything i think we've jus grown apart. Our conversations r jus not the same theres that awkwardness...idk if u guys have ever experienced that? Anyway I feel like we don't have anything in common anymore...She probably feels it 2...We jus talk occasionally out of habit. Idk if i should jus let it go and let it be as is or if i should say we're going apart should we try and fix it? We wouldn't be friends that long if we didn't care about each other n i don't wanna lose our friendship. I also don't always wanna be the one who has 2 patch things up...I've run out of thread lol! I don't wanna fix anything else I want somebody else 2 do the work for a change!! Wat do u guys think of this?

Food inc.

                                                                                                                                                                              I dont no if you guys have ever seen the movie food inc... It is so disgusting what we are eating nowadays the things that they allow in our food should be band. It got me second guessing all the fast food chains.The cruelty to animals and the use of unsanitary methods is enough to me wanna become  vegetarian. I won't go that far because thats an extreme and i love my meat lol.. but I really thinking about going straight organic and only making stuff at home. I really do think long term its gonna have an effect on us...If you guys have seen the movie leave a comment...lol even if you haven't leave a comment give me your honest opinion about this

Interview

Guess wat guys... I got a job interview finally!! I been looking for a new job for like a yr. So they had a job fair at my skool last wk i went and got some numbers in hopes that i would get n interview and job...So i applied online and my friend told me 2 call the person from the fair and i got an interview. Its not the job that i applied for but at least i'll have a steady job instead of floating around. Plus its at the hospital right near my house n i can work there after i graduate... I really hope i get the job wish me luck!!!

Selling Books on Amazon

Ok so I go on amazon alot cuz thats where I buy most of my books cheap or whatever else i need... So I wanted 2 sell some books and chegg wouldnt buy them n wanted me to donate them instead. I'm like ok I really need to sell those books so I try to sell them on amazon and end up losing money lol...I can't do stockes or be n accountant. Idk how that happened i think there was some kind of miscommunication somewhere i jus dont no where lol... From now on its chegg or selling at skool I can afford paying 4 books i already bought...fyi amazon is ur enemy not ur friend!!!

Dreams

Ok if u no me in real life then u'll no that i'm a dreamer...I daydream basically all the time about things i want or wish i had...Its pathetic I no but my theory is if u can dream then u can do it. Now, that having been said i also have like premonitions in my dreams. I haven't figured exactly how it works but I always have weird dreams when something is going to happen.For instance my uncle died of cancer last yr. (R.I.P. Uncle Frankie) that night b4 i had a weird dream n the next day i found out he had passed away, same with my grandpa dying, the earthquake in haiti and etc. I also have dreams about ppl who i haven't seen in a while, which means i going 2 see them sometime this wk. So basically i'm really in to dreams...Idk if i'm the only one... So I wanna hear them tell me ur weirdest or craziest dreams...

What music are you listening to today?

everything including foreign

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Who's the sexiest man alive?

My soul mate who ever he is... lol

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If you had your own talk show, who would your first three guests be?

My grandpa, soulmate and ummmmm...god

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What video game have you played the most?

Game cube 2 broke 2 get a new system lol

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If you could have been the author of any book, what would it have been?

Twilight or harry potter mad money lol

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Would you rather swim in a pool or the ocean?

A pool less waves of dirty water lol

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What's the origin of your name?

My name is french and it means god's gift

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What was the worst movie you've ever seen?

Gilli wit ben affleck n jennifer lopez was sooooo bad

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Would you rather be a zombie or a mummy?

A zombie cuz then i could be in a michael jackson video lol

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The science to laptop picking...lol

Ok so if you read my previous posts you know that i wanted a laptop and couldnt decide which one i wanted it was between dell and mac. Then when i picked mac i had to decide between the macbook and the macbook pro. So i decided to go wit the pro after researching both and actually going to the store and picking one. I looked at battery life, memory,processing,video and etc. I put more research into finding my laptop then i do for skool lol.  Since I was the one paying for it myself i figured it had better be the best and last me for a while...I think my laptop is so cool if ur thinking of getting one i totally recommend it...Happy shopping!!!

Wat I miss...

I miss my grandpa...not waking up early...summers playing manhunt...feeling like i fit in...feeling like i'm smart...watching saturday morning cartoons...i miss alot of things wat about ya?

Registration

This wk has been crazy first trying to get financial aid. I finally do and its a nice chunk of money. Now I'm failing patho. I jus can't get any kind of break in this skool. Then i get in trouble or reprimanded for doing something i was told to wtf seriously!! If ur thinking of going into nursing u might wanna second guess ur self n really c if its wat u want but its not easy n its not a joke...

Classes

Ok so im trying 2 pick classes for next semester  so i go on ratemyprofessor.com they tell me one thing and ppl from my skool tell me another. So does rate my professor actually work comment if u no the answer?

How would you describe your personality?

Comfortable and relaxed wit a hint of sarcasm

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What's the oldest piece of clothing you still own and wear?

My pants from like 6th grade lol im now in my second yr of college

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What's the best place near you to get a pizza?

anywhere thats open at the time lol

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formspring.me

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Happiness is a mood not a destination...

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At this point...

I feel like I'm talking to my self I dont know if i wanna continue this blog...I'm not getting any feed back wat so ever... This blog had become my best friend when the ppl i new werent there for me... now its not here for me either so i think i should bid it dueces...

Halloween party

So I went to the halloween party it was ok...I was really hoping to get my dance on but my friend abandoned ship mad early... I gave it a chance everybody was their wit they're friends. I  jus kinda watched most of the time... It was so funny the white ppl were jus jumping around shaking anything and everything and the black ppl were in some corner grinding on each other and other nameless things. The food was ok but i didnt really eat anything i had a piece of chicken and some water. The customs were crazy there were:bananas, mario n luigi, a 6 foot 5 drag queen (by the way best custom ever in my opinion), a burrito, mad slutty french maids i think u guys get the picture. So i basically stood around for about an hour walkin around n stuff so these 2 guys come up 2 me n start showing off or what ever i dont pay attention 2 them so i move they move so i not trying 2 get a swell head so i experiment n do this a couple of times n they follow everytime n im like y do i always get stuck wit the losers.So i do one quick move an get away from them... and disappear on the dance floor where i literally dance for a minute (1 minute exactly) and bounce lol... I no u guys had way more fun then i did so leave a comment...

Would you rather have the ability to fly, or the ability to breathe underwater?

swim cuz the world is gonna eventually be under water

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If you could be invited to one person's birthday party, whose would it be?

Oprah's im hoping she would give out presents to her guests

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How many countries have you traveled to?

1

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Do you believe there's intelligent life on other planets?

yes

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Halloween

I don't celebrate Halloween but theres a party at my school and im planning on goin but im not dressing up...I dont wanna be weird for not dressing up but i wanna have fun but not go against my ethics idk how its gonna work out i'll let u guys no...

Tired

I tired of my family fighting, tired of ppls attitudes, tired of nursing skool, tired of not getting better grades and just plan tired of not being good enough or always being second best y can't i be enough?

U eva get the feeling dat evybody else in ur family is cooler than u n the only reason they talk 2 u is becuz ur related...anyone? Ok maybe its jus me...

Wear purple day!!

This is a day to wear purple to show that you do not stand for bullying and hate crimes. To show that your all about equal rights and fairness...So all my ppl rep ur purple loud rep ur purple proud!!!

False alarm lol

After weeks of trying 2 figure out if prince went to my I have come to the conclusion that it is not him...You will remember that I had a a brain f**k when i thought that he might be attending my skool. Turns out its some dude that has a striking resemblence this is something out of the freaking twilight zone. I still feel funny when i c him around its like they're long lost twins or something.

Nursing skool

Ok from the get go our teachers pretty much told us dat we were screwed but i didnt believe them. Their exact words were "nurses eat their young" figuratively speaking of course but they didnt lie nobody wants to help us they just throw in the shark tank n tell us to survive. Clinicals has been a journey getting on to it self... my advice 2 ya if ya gonna go for nursing u better really want it or ur gonna get murdered...

If you could instantly become fluent in another language, which language would you pick?

i would pick spanish cuz it seems to be needed nowadays

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Would you rather be really hot or really cold?

i would rather be hot im a summer baby for a reason lol

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What do you think about formspring.me so far?

its ok

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Do you believe in fate?

yes i do

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Who do you think should be the next president of the United States?

hillary clinton its about time we had a first man lmao

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If you could become any fictional character, who would you be?

cinderalla im in to that whole finding my prince charming thing...lol

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What would your dream job look like?

I wanna be n ob/gyn i love the whole pregnancy n baby thing... it neva bores me

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What's your favorite genre of music?

all

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Where'd you find out about formspring.me?

facebook lol

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What's the most unselfish thing you've ever done?

i ran after this old lady n gave her money bac that had fell out her purse

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What was your favorite book as a child?

i didnt have one i hated reading lol

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What would be the best thing about being a vampire?

reading ppls minds

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Do you believe in luck?

yes

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If you could rid the world of one thing, what would it be?

pollution

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What TV show do you wish would go off the air for good?

everybody loves raymond

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What one thing are you exceptionally bad at?

making converstion wit someone i jus met

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Are you a morning or night person?

im a night person

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If you could ask Barack Obama one question what would it be?

Do u think ur doing evything u promised?

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Would you rather be a vampire or a werewolf?

a werewolf lol

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What TV show makes you laugh the loudest?

family guy

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Who and when was your first kiss?

didnt happen yet lol sad i no...lol

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What's the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?

some weird australian jelly i didnt like but they seem to love it lol

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If you could have an endless supply of any food, what would you get?

cheeze its lol

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Break ups

Is it break up wk i feel like everybody i no is breaking up. My bff's boyfriend broke up wit her becuz he wanted to spend more time with his friends.I personally think thats selfish becuz she was goin thru a rush time n wanted him to support her instead he broke up with her...wat n ass wipe
Then theres my friend from skool she had to break up with her boyfriend becuz she caught him cheating... He's just a plan dog
I feel really bad for them becuz they've invested alot of time in these guys n money jus to have these gys throw it back in there face... I'm not saying all guys r bad but they not looking too good right now...All this drama makes me happy that im single...Wat ya opinion on this?

Bed baths lol

Its official i can now legally give ppl bed baths lol so if ur young, hot, male, single n sick i can u no lend my serves to u...lmao let me stop... that jus sounded plan wrong. Its alot of work giving ppl bed baths u wouldnt think so but it is...
Class has jus been crazy it feels like evyday i have something or another due. I officially start clinicals this saturday lol i"ll be at a hospital im so nervous n excited... Who ever said college was fun lied cuz i have an occasional laugh but i wouldnt exactly call it fun...Maybe im doing it wrong lol...Any suggestions?

Books!!! -_-

I jus paid a small fortune for my books n u no wats the messed up part is... I GOT THE WRONG ONES... ALL THANX 2 A FRIEND THAT WAS TRYING TO HELP OUT!! uhhh y did i listen 2 her while she was "helping" me she wasnt even paying attention to wat she was picking n kept getting distracted...-__- neva again... Has this ever happened 2 evybody? Cuz u no wat they say misery loves company...If it hasnt i'm feeling worse n worse. fml

classes

I jus added a new english class to my schedule n it like totally messed up my thursdays for like the next couple of months I get out of one class at like 11:30 right n then i have a break for like a good 6 hrs maybe more. My next class is at 6:35 i could go home but i dont like seriously who wants to be there its so depessing n boring...So i been havin wit jo (joanne) lol dont get ur hopes up ppl. So yesturday was the first time i went 2 my new english which im suppose 2 be takin wit jo but she had 2 leave early because of the storm last nite. Its n ok class were reading the outsider n were gonna read twlight again. Its like the best english class i couldve taken lol.
Ok so this is my second yr in college right n random ppl have been coming up to me n telling me i look young...wat does that mean? I'm all for looking young but i dont wanna look so young that guys wont give me a second glance... I wanna look fresh not kid like... Am i wrong about this? Can i get a guys opinion here?

Money for skool

OK so i didnt get any help from the government or watevr 2 pay for skool, i thought that my parents made 2 much money, but u no wat i found out 2day that evybody in that office at skool is retarded they jus found out that i made n error filling out the form. I went up there like 4 TIMES N NOBODY CAUGHT MY MISTAKE.... WAT AM I PAYING OVER $20,000 A YR FOR? I feel better now lol but i mean really wat r they there for...
I also jus paid like a small fortune for books n they not even new and some of them i wont even own im jus borrowing them...I will be broke for the next like 2wks fml... Hence this is the life of a college student...

I dont have parents i have investors n appearently evything i own is on borrowed time...excuse me for a assuming dat i was loved...operation move out is on!!!

The first day of skool & prince

I had my first class to in like four months its weird but it feels like i neva left. I had like the longest nursing class eva n it was so cold in there... How its like 79 degrees outside n they got on the ac that dont make no sense.As usual i found that there is only one guy in my whole nursing class of like 30 ppl. The chances of him looking my way are like none. That the whole problem i have with my skool the girls totally out number the guys. So its real slim picking for us girls n they get to pick who ever they want.
Ok prince is like this guy i new in like ninth grade right but then i moved i had is email n we talked althrough out high skool i even asked him to be my prom date.He couldnt could though (personally i think he thought that i got really like fat n ugly until he saw like my pics from graduation) So the summer of 09 right i finally invite him out 2 like the movies but i didnt want it to b a date right so i invited my bff 2 come along we hung out it was weird blah blah blah...So that was in july right...in august right i had like this mini lil like breakdown cuz i thought that evybody was leaving me but the truth is i jus didnt like change n was jus scared 2 go 2 college all alone...So i told him n he was like telling me dont worry n stuff basically evything u wanna hear wen your feeling down. I'm like yay i like where this is leading maybe it could become something more.The next time i talk 2 him we're like making jokes n stuff n i forgot wat i said 2 him but after that he neva wrote back so im like ok wateva...so im about 2 hit him up on facebook n this chick is on his page is like i miss u i wish u were hear so im like ok this is why he hasnt been talking 2 me so im like cool u no i do me n he'll do him so i havent talk 2 him in like a yr right...So today i walk in my skool cafetera n im going 2 meet my friend who i havent seen since skool ended n we're talking blah blah blah....This guy walks in that looks exactly like prince im like wtf wtf i hope its not him. Im like lookin at him n i c that its the same phone n evything he has that same lost puppy look. As im leaving he like looks at me idk if it was becuz it was him n he recognized or if it becuz i was looking at him. I reallllllly realllly hope that its not him n its just a coincidence i think i spelled that wrong lol but anyway if it is him its gonna be really weird. My friend said that if it is him its because its destiny idk i hope not.

It seems my dad didnt really miss me...he jus needed sumbody 2 cut ass on... After worryin about him... Well fuck him n his old ass!!<:'(><:(>

Yay my dad is finally back safe n sound from his month long trip out of da country... He left like all his new stuff der... Does dat make any sense 2 u guys?

skool :-(

I havent been blogging cuz i didnt really no wat to write that would be interesting...but that time has passed n im back lol. My bff left for skool 2day n i didnt even get a chance to c her b4 she left... can u believe that? Well at least she has a phone now lets just hope she doesnt lose it again. Im gonna miss her wen she in skool she always seems to be busy not that im not but she neva really has enough time to talk... but i dygress. I cant believe i start skool next wk im so not ready 4 the hustle n bustle of skool yet.Ok so my major is nursing right n i was suppose 2 get a physical,cpr class n i was suppose to get a uniform none of that has been done n i still dont have my books im totally screwed...To make matters worse i have skool on fridays n i have 2 wake up at the crack ass of dawn evy saturday morning for like the next 4 months fml. I still trying to figure out wat laptop i want you would think i wouldve made up my mind already but no still no clue...Wat kind of laptops do u guys have?R they good, bad, or worse leave a comment...

Can u believe i had 2 go 2 three theaters jus 2 c vampires suck on a tuesday nite becuz the other ones were sold out...fml who new tues was so crazy<Dede<8)>>

Y is it dat evy horoscope i read says dat i need 2 let go of the past...is this a sign of something lol cuz house idk wat...any ideas guys?

Its my birthday wooo!! Im offically 19yrs old damn its really amazin 2 c how time flies...gonna do a lil shopping n den gonna watch da game woo go giants!!

Farting n Real Relationships

OK this is about a convo that me n my bff had a while bac n i finally told her about my blog n she saw it... n she was like i should put this convo as my next blog ok...Its the funniest most weirdest convo we ever had. We got only the subject of boys our main topic of choice lol n we came up wit this question "how do u no if ur relationship wit a guy is real? so we sat there on the phone n really thought about it. First we were like u have have to like the guy n blah blah blah right. Then we were like u have to be really comfortable we were like that was #1 on our list right...So then we were like how do u no wen ur really comfortable wit a guy? the answer came to us basically at the same time lol... its wen u can fart wit the guy in the room n he's not really disgusted n finds it to be totally funny n u can laugh at ur self... If i reach that level with a guy some day i no "its dat real luv" in the words of my my friend from skool lol... I hope u take this wisdom i have donned upon u n use it wisely lmfaoo... so wat ya think of me n my bff breakdown on relationships?

Birthday... period

I woke up blessed 2 find my self wit pd...not... this shit really hurts wit the cramping, the bloating n the nausea. Why did girls have to get there pds i mean really isnt child birth enough but noooo...evy month i have to face the same excruciating pain as a girl the eventually always ends with me lying in the fetal position. And wat do guys have squant diddly the mostly painful thing that could happen to them is getting their thing stuck in their zipper (which i might add is the funniest thing ever lmao) that happens less n less as they get older...
To make matter worse im gonna have my pd on my birthday uhhhhh which is 2days away n i still havent really planned wat im gonna do other then shopping n watchin the game (woooo go giants!!!)

At da bbq of da yr but i gotta leave early cuz i invited sumone n they tired aint dat some bull...no more inviting ppl out uhhhh!!!

Shopping ;-D

So as u already no my dad went out of the country right, but b4 he went i had 2 get him a few things which means shopping lol. U no im done so me my friend and my sis are walking around browsing looking 4 wat we need n we walk into this one store called Dr.Jay's mind u i didnt even want to go in they kind of drag me lol. So were looking around trying to find sweat pants for my dad n were told to go upstairs n we find them right. So we go to the register n theres nobody there so we see this cute indian lookin dude right wit long curly hair n a yankee cap on come behind the register. We notice those shaped rubber band at the register n im like cool look they have the justice league ones n hes like wow a girl who watches cartoons. Im thinking wow this dude obviously dont no dat much girls lol. So like i notice the caps hanging on the wall n there all yankee n hes like we dont have they caps here they suck. At this point im offended n then he notices im buying mens clothes n hes like wh r these 4 n my friends like her boyfriend (my boyfriend like i have one lol). My sis n i go not theyre for my dad dude goes cuz there my size lol. Im like dude is already like mad comfortable with us so i pay n were walking away n theres another customer at the register dude shouts out i hope u like yankees next yr wen we win the world series again.Im like wow dude was going in hard body trying to get info n he wasnt bad looking my  friend wants to stalk him n make small talk 2 c if she can finally hook me up n my sis totally agrees with her (mind u that this is my younger sis) I tink my mom has some price ova my head as to who can get me a man faster... dat is jus a damn shame lol. I dont discriminate im all about cute guys should i go 4 it lol?

My dad is going out of the country 2morow n im really scared n paranoid about u no cuz he's my dad the only one im eva gonna get idk wat i wood do wit out him..

chuckie cheese

I no its where a kid can be a kid but personally i find it to be like the most fun lol...I went there yesturday 4 like my lil cousins bday with my family, one of my best friends n her boyfriend...I ate mad pizza, won some tickets, had some weird moments but all in all alot of laughs...So my question is how old is too old 4 chuckie cheese lol? Maybe i should try david n busters too since i heard its like the grown up version...Maybe I'll go there for my bday next month...wat ya think?

thanx

I wanted 2 say thanx 2 one follower lol... I hope u r the first of many to come :-)

Laptops

Ok i been wanting a laptop for a while and im coming up on the the day where I have enough money to get one right.So now the big problem is deciding which one 2 get. They all have things that i like about them but the question is which one would be the best 4 me? I'm a college student so i have to take into consideration skool work,weight,accessories n it also has 2 keep me enertained. I dont wanna buy then regret it you no. So the ones im thinking about r the macbook, Dell or n hp. Those are the most popular at least to me... So the mac is the most expensive but there r not many viruses but i would have 2 get less accessories n i can use it 4 skool. The dell i can get alot of accessories n but there r viruses n i can use it 4 skool. Finally the hp is jus in the running cuz it was the third thing i thought i havent really looked in to it but maybe i should. So wat do u guys think or wat do ya use? Hit me up n tell me about it...

So i decided 2 to a topic each wk n talk about it n c ur veiws on it since my thoughts have been all ova... So wat ya think? Yes,no, maybe so...

Im a lil confused... y does my mom want me 2 have a boyfriend more than i do my own self...i swear the only reason im in college 2 her is 2 find a man lmfao...

My life is changing.I'm becoming into my own after all these yrs of being a teen i finally no wat it is to find myself. I hope happiness comes along 4 da ride.

The road to see Eclipse

So Wednesday i went to see the new twilight series movie eclipse and you would not believe the trouble i had. First of all i had to wake up mad early right only to then find out we weren't gonna leave that early. So i went back to sleep right, i wake and realize that i only have 30 mins to get ready im wtf... So i finally hop in my car already like 10 mins late only to realize my friend has txted me asking me to bring tampons. So i rush back into the house get the tampons rush back. I'm finally on the road an notice my friends whole street is blocked becuz they're fixing the road so i go around the corner from her house an park at the library. I walk over to her house where she realizes that she doesnt have any change for  the bus. So she has to pay her brother for his change. So we're finally out the door i decide that im hungry,so we walk to the store to get breakfast. When we walk in we see a lady with her 5 kids standing there,so im like ok whatever right. She starts asking all of them what they want one at a time taking mad long. Each kid takes for eva to decide and then when they finally do decide she can't hear what the hell they''re saying. My friend and i are like wtf she taking mad long and in the end they all wound up getting the same thing. So i finally get my order in and we get our food mad fast cuz i think the guy working  there has a crush on us idk.
All this time my other friend has been on both me and my other friends ass about showing up to the theater to see the 12 pm movie. We get on the bus which came mad fast and we get to the terminal to tranfer to the other bus to get to the theater.She stays txting us are  you guys there yet? whats taking ya so long? Only to find out that they playing the movie every like 30 mins. So we're like dude chill right we can always go catch the one at 12:30. So we get there around 11:40 and we're like rushing to the theater. When we get there we're like where are you? You know cuz she was like rushing us. She goes im leaving home now we're like wtf  you had us thinking you were already here. She lives like an hour away, so my other friend goes off on her. Shes like you guys dont have to wait for me i can see it another day. We're like we said we were gonna see it together an we are. So we sit in mcdonalds for like an hour and people watch till she gets there. We rush to the theater to try to get a ticket to the 1:30 show only to find out that its sold out the next showing is at 3pm. We're like wth we look at our friend and say this is all your fault. So 2:40 roles around and we go back to the theater to get good seats. I see my cuzzin there who took off of work jus to go see this movie wit his girlfriend.
I honestly did not know when the movie began lol. I was waiting for this great seen that neva came. I sat there the whole time cracking jokes with the kid next to me and my friend sitting next to me. I am honestly over the whole twilight drama. I realized that their love is so selfish not caring about anybody but themselves it doesnt matter who gets hurt in the process... Idk thats my opinion what do ya think?

Jobs r there any out there?

Job!!! The number one thing i need this summer that i cant find. I filed everywhere hoping that they would call me back but no such luck... My boss now is like playing wit my mind. She gives me work then takes it back. I tried applying online but i dont think those ever work. Do they? I dont wanna work at a fast food place not that i have anything against them its jus that i want something related to my major nursing. Its so hard to find a job related to that without any sort of training wats so ever. I was thinking of getting the certified nursing assistants course but its gonna interfer with my classes in september. What is a girl to do?

Cinderalla complex and zombies

Yesturday i had a dream about almost being killed but i was saved by tyrese lol...We then kind of had a fun flirty relationship that i wouldnt mind having in real life. Today i haad a dream about zombies where i was almost killed again but then i was saved by my uncle who was shot instead but we found away 2 save him. We also found a way 2 save some of the zombies. They're kind of half zombies now and so their emotions r double of that of humans. One of them was really trying 2 put the moves on me lol...The sad part is that i was considering it...You gotta think like r my standards that low that i would be willing 2 date a half zombie? So the running theme of both dreams r me almost dying which im not 2 fond of, me getting saved and getting the moves put on me. I dont no wat that means am i having some kind of cinderalla complex where i want to be saved? What do i wanna be saved from in the first place anyway? Or is my concious telling me im 2 picky i dont no... wat do ya think?

To approach or not to approach that is the question lol

Ok so I was getting a lot of different answer as 2 if girls should approach guys... Some say I don’t want a girl approaching me because I like 2 be the one doing the chasing...While others are like its refreshing 2 have a girl approach. I don’t know which is correct because either one hasn’t been working out for me. When i ask guys out they think I'm 2 forward so that doesn’t work out. When I wait for the guy 2 come 2 me it’s never somebody I like or he sends his friend. Which 4 me personally is a no no because I want to get 2 know you not your friend we shouldn’t need n interpreter lol I don’t know if I spelled that right. What do you guys have 2 say on this?

Epithanetic :-) n Random

Ok i jus made that would up but it sounds real doesnt it lol. I have concluded that i am in a rut I think about the same things do the same things and etc. I need a change not something as major as moving cuz the last time i wished for a change thats wat happpened. idk how it happened... I wanna do something new or try something different. I have yet to find this great adventure. Any ideas?
I currently work as a personal assistant. I think my boss is trying to fire me though which is cool because im looking for a new job anyway. It is the hardest thing in the world to for like 3 reasons.1: I have no experience 2:I dont have a skill or trade 3I dont have a resume. How do you even make a resume with no experience lol. My reume my name my number and email on a blank sheet of paper lol. So i found this program where you can become a nurses assistant its 10wks of work. Thats like my whole summer but once im done the pay is better though n ill have a bettter job 4 what i want you no. Is it worth my whole summer? Its four days a wk i could still have fun... But all this is if i actually get in the program... You no the saying dont count ur chickens b4 they hatch...I live by it because i tend to do that lol.
So i was talking to crystal again today and i realize that i keep setting my self up by talking to her. I always get mad and she neva really has nothing nice to say. I also realized another reason i hate talking to her. When I her i usually have something to tell her but she jus goes off about herself n i kind of jus zone out n she asks me y i neva say anything. Is it lost on her i dont think so she jus doesnt care. Ok so im chilling wit my sister from another mother 2morow n crystal wants to come too. I dont want her to go shes gonna cramp our style.What should i tell her? Shes really trying to invite her self...Dont ya hate ppl like that idk if its jus me?
Omg i say this on my cousins page n kind of liked it so im going to "borrow" it lol. "Prove 2 me ur not all the same, because the only dfference in guys i see r jus the names" Too be honest lately i have to agree with her...I could be wrong tell me wat u think...

Ranting friend & parking tickets

Ok my friend lets jus call her crystal rants about evything n evybody 2 evybody. n get mad at us (me n our other friends) wen we have our bad moments like wtf evybody has a right 2 be sad or mad. wat right do u have 2 judge me? ur not the only one wit things 2 deal wit. she tells all this 2 her boyfriend n makes us sound like the worst ppl in the world. I feel like we're good friends but we always have 2 do things her way.most times i jus deal wit it but sometimes enoughs enough i have thing i wanna do n say 2. I have thoughts and feelings y shouldnt i be heard. Thats her boyfriend she has evy right 2 tell him stuff, but i dont think things that i tell her should be told 2 him unless it concerns him. this is personal stuff b/w best friends i dont want some random guy knowing personal stuff about me. I feel like i been violated.wat if they break up? So if evy guy she dates is 2 learn stuff about me how many guys will dat be?
Omg so i went 2 the library & 4got 2 watch the meter & wen i came out i had a ticket on my car 4 $25. Im like totally scared of telling my parens cuz the car is under their name. i dont wanna raise the insurance. so im thinking of jus paying the money wit out telling them but i dont want it to come back n bite me in the ass. If nothing happens then fine, but if my parents find out that i got a ticket n didnt tell them ill be in worst trouble cuztheyll be like im not honest. Im caught b/w a rock n a hard place any suggestions?

my parents,boys n friends

Ok my very first blog...here goes nothing. i jus finished my freshmen yr of college with passin grade on evything nothing below a c+. i dont drink, smoke or get into alot of trouble but do u think that would be enough 4 my parents to trust me no they give me a whole speech about how they were raised in the caribbean. "Girls arent suppose 2 be out pass 10 at night" well then r boys? n were living in america ppl not the carribean. im payin 4 things that i didnt even commit. im innocent i tell u!! innocent!! y shouldnt i have fun this summer with my friends im a 19yr old college student. First hand experience if u have a choice dont stay home the worst mistake ull ever make.
Well now that that has been established... Y is so hard 2 meet guys i mean i think im nice but hey u neva no. Apparently i have the "fuck off" face according 2 my friends. wat does dat even mean? So im suppose 2 go around smiling all the time? i dont think so i would look crazi. After telling me all this they went on 2 tell me that as a black young women my days 2 find a great guy 2 married r numbered.the exact quote was "after college ur opportunities 2 find a man drop dramatically n by the age of 30 ur doomed" how is dat suppose 2 make me feel?Is this true ya or is she jus playing wit my mind?