My long time Crush...Can u solve my dilemma?

So if u read my my earlier ( College life at home: My BFF & College life at home: To no one in particular...) posts then u no that my crush was mentioned but not known and i said that i would explain... Ok I'm the kind of girl that when i like i'm really into u and only u. You have and hold my full attention. I think other guys r cute but my heart isn't really in it. So my crush is from way back in elementary skool. I had a crush on him since the 4th grade. The first time i saw him, he was rounding up his lil brothers and sisters (he has alot of them lol) to go home after skool. He was being all nice and sweet with them i jus looked at him and thought "damn, he is so cute and he would make a really great dad..." Y am i thinking about having kids at 9 yrs old is beyond me lol. Then i met him in the fifth grade (that was a good yr) n he was as nice i thought he would be. Basically i liked him he like me and we just never got together. One of my best friends at the time let it slip that i had gone thru puberty. He asked me if i wanted to have his babies which had me speechless for a moment but then i cursed him out.I look back on that and still laugh, lmao. He asked me 2 my fifth grade prom (the only guy to ever ask me) which was so sweet but i didn't even go to prom (i really regret not going). When we had our graduation rehearsals he got jealous of the guy i was walking with (if that doesn't make u go awww then nothing will lol). After our fifth grade graduation we took pictures n he gave me a kiss on the cheek. I was totally shocked cuz my dad was right there... I had 2 act disgusted 2 keep up appearances lol but it was a good surprise. He  was soooo sweet.


By this point we talk on the phone almost daily n his mom is tired of me calling his house lol but she's nice about it. We went 2 the same middle skool but hardly saw each other in skool but when i did see him it was good times. We would hang after skool in front of our old skool while picking up younger siblings. This is the time we started hugging evytime we saw each other lol. Then around 7th grade he took some summer classes so he could go back to his rightful grade. He was a yr older then me n got either left back or they messed up his papers wen he came to the U.S. Anyway i only saw him after skool senior yr of middle skool cuz he was already in his first yr of high skool. Then i didn't see him or his siblings for like a straight month. When i asked him about it, he didn't answer so i dropped it. (Come to find out yrs l8a that his dad left his mom for another women. They got into an argument he ends up killing her (the girlfriend not the wife). I'm really mad that he didn't tell me i thought that we were close at the time but i digress.) So anyway back to the story, then after i graduate n go to high skool i gotta take the bus back to my sisters skool pick them up and go home. By this time i get there he's always already gone. So i missed seeing him that was our hang time. So one day i get off the bus to walk to the skool and i hear someone calling me. I look around and its him he sat there and waited for me. I was so surprised so we started talking or watever. Then he goes "u not gonna give me my hug?" I'm like i thought i was the only one who liked us hugging but apparently i was wrong. I wasn't even thinking about that i was jus happy to see him. He had to take the bus but didn't wanna leave so he let the first bus go by but the second bus came right after it so he really had to leave. 


So it basically was like and unsaid tradition for us to hang out after graduations whether it be ours or our siblings its always an interesting experience lol.So during 9th grade i find out that im moving and i finally tell him after my sister n his brother's graduation. I was basically hanging out with him and his whole family. He didn't believe me at first but when i kept repeating it i guess it settled in. I had a regents 2 take that afternoon n evytime i was like i gotta go he was like wait jus 5 more minutes u can take the next bus... It got to the point where i only had 30 mins to get to the skool wen it usually takes me an hour becuz of this boy. I was really weighing the pros and the cons of staying and talking to him rather then taking this test. So when its finally time for me to leave we exchange numbers and i give him a big hug. This is gonna sound really corny but i still have the paper that he wrote his number on and its like 4 almost most five yrs l8a (thats either dedication or creepy u tell me). I haven't seen him since that day tried calling him but his phone got disconnected. Then i find out a couple months l8a that he had moved 2. Ok so i jus found out about wat his dad did n even though its none of my business i'm mad he didnt tell i thought we were close if ur going thru something and ur my friend i wanna do evything i can to help....Anyway get this now my sister is friends with his brother  n jus got into contact with his brother has the number and evything. So do i call him n see wats good or do i let go of the past and move on? So this is the one that i lost that i never really had...So only like my closest friends no the whole story about him n now u do 2... leave ur comment n tell me ur honest opinion cuz i could really use it...