2012

Hey guys its been awhile... Its been a crazy few months with Hurricane sandy and then the snow storm. Lets not forget the week and a half of school missed which i am still paying for now -_- lol. If that wasn't enough i got sick twice which eventually turned into an ear infection. The good news is that i'm getting better, I got a new xbox 360 with kinect and zumba, and my parents saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to gieco lmao.  School is kicking my but as usual but i've decided to not let it stress me out and let god take care of it while i do my part :-). 

Some exciting news guys I told you how I had a fall out with a couple of friends this year and i;m glad  to say that i have made new ones :-) my clinical crew and I this year have really connected we all have like this bond and caring for each other. With that being said we went out last week and got totally hammered lmao we went bar hoping and lets just say my new name is twerk team Dede. Apparently I am a dancing fool when i get drunk and act like my sister lol. So me and this white boy that can dance brought the house down lol smh never thought i would use those words to describe myself epic. 

Another thing that happened is over the summer I saw somebody from my childhood at a family party always had a crush on him. So a  few weeks ago he hits me up actually like the day after thanksgiving. So he hit me up saying that he thought that i was a cool person and he would like to take me out. I'm like omg this is so cool I tell him yea, you know i'm interested. So we start talking and everything is going well then i find out that he is not who i thought he was. First of he's divorced which doesn't really bother me then he's like i got two kids who live with me, I'm like woah ok, then he's like i have two other kids by two different baby mamas other then his ex-wife and i'm like WTF. That is on a whole different level like Maury  or Jerry springer. I told him i was not interested so fast i think his head spun off. That is way too much baggage for even a regular person who's been in a relationship before, but for me who's had no real involvement its murder. 

Anyway I've learned alot about myself this year i thought i would share a few with you because i love you guys that much:

1. I don't take ANY sh*t from no one 
2. I am pretty
3. Momma is always right (don't tell her i told ya that lol)
4. The people you love don't necessarily love you the same
5. I have periodontal disease (No its not contagious lol)
6. Don''t to be afraid of change :-)
7. God has a sense of humor and he is awesome for a reason
8. Being a virgin is so cool
9. People are human don't put people on a pedestal that they don't deserve
10. Last but not least, love yourself and your own company because your gonna be together a while :-)

2012 your awesome thanks for the memories hope you go out with a bang!!!! That being said guys i hope you share what you've learned about yourselves this year in comment. See you guys l8a :-)

The whole world...

Is me or is the whole world out to get me i can't do anything right i'm not smart enough, pretty enough or tall enough....What is enough? because anything and everything i do can't possibly be it. Please enlighten my poor lost soul  because I AM LOST!!!!!! I am a lil angry at the moment sorry guys... as you can tell it hasn't been the best day :-P.

So I wanted to tell you guys that I got a new old car lol I named it charlie (i consider that name steady and reliable so hopefully charlie doesn't prove me wrong) he's a black nissan altima and he's the new (only...sigh) man in my life. Carlos was more of a bad boy so I've moved on to the sweet heart type lmao....

I love this video

Just once...

I want a decent guy that I actually like to walk up to and say :I noticed you around and seem like a nice person i'd really like to get to know maybe we could exchange numbers? (or i really want to get to know do you wanna go out sometime?) i'm just putting it out there lol...By the way i totally did a sucky job at my first nursing test not super bad but not excellent either in the 70's reign.  I'm carpooling with some classmates to clinical tell me why my car breaks down halfway there on the highway at 6 in the morning. So my dad rescues us and we make it on time but my car is shot smh poor Carlos :-( so now i'm carless (shopping for a car on a strict budget) not fun i feel like somebody cut off my legs. So there are 2 guys in my nursing class who I think are cute one in my clinical group who i actually say a few words to but theres always some girl riding his shlong lol so i don't think he's gonna go for super shy me. the other guy total eye candy and i have 2 classes with him :-D but theres still no hope but my eyes get plenty of candy lol

I'm sick :-(

You guys i'm sick and i need a nurse/doctor any takers?....No, i guess i need 2 do the job  myself :-P. So much going on these past couple of weeks i guess its all catching up 2 me. So much has happened in the span of 2 wks. One is i found out that I have periodontal disease or gingivitis. Its bitter sweet because it really does explain a lot, glad to finally no that its not all in my head and it sucks who wants a disease u no wat i mean... second skool has started 4 me once again got 2 admit i was kinda excited n i've had my first full wk of skool n i'm not dead yet lol but things can change very quickly so i'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts. 

Last but not least i went clubbing i think i did it right this time lol. It was n all black affair 4 one of my friend's birthday danced the nite away or kind of when my feet weren't hurting lol.  I danced with my friend n some random guy lol. i must say i think i was like the worst dancer there lmao n that is sad smh but i digress. Idid alot of observing as bad as thats sounds lol but i cant help it. It was so weird 2 actually have guys come up 2 me (not that we talked or anything) i was just flattered u no. One who i think was flat out drunk when i was about 2 leave called me over me being the goofball that i'm becomes a smiling fool lol. i nod or wat ever n tell him no thanks. He was there the whole nite didn't notice me at all but becuz i guess he thought he would leave alone or somethig n tried 2 reach out 2 me (wrong choice buddy lol). it was fun but i got home at 6am n had work at 8 am not my best idea but didn't think i would be out that late smh lol

Weavtastic

So got my first full head weave satuurday and it looks nice i can't complain right. The thing that gets 2 me, evybody is like you look so nice love ur hair, love ur dress and im grateful, who doesn't like 2 be complimented; Where are the compliments when my hair is natural? A lot of guys are always like i don't like weaves, weaves are this and that but they only checking the girls with the weaves :-P (where they do that at?) You say you want this and that but your actions go in the opposite direction lol actions speak louder then words,  I'm just saying...any thoughts?

Spa day

So i finally had my spa day on wednesday after getting a last minute appt the day of lol, because evybody that was invited bailed sucks for them :-P. So i went alone got lost 4 like 30mins but i finally made it and when i got there i was glad i went alone i didnt have to worry about anybody but myself. I got the citrus body scrub with the swedish massage 2 hrs worth. It was so worth it but the whole time i keep thinking i hope she doesnt choose this exact moment 2 turn into a lesbian lmao. Then after being totally relaxed i had 2 drive home which kind of sucked. it was fun though i totally have to do it again.

Me Journey

I have decided to go on a me journey. Its bettering myself thru positive thinking, gratefulness and fufillment. Its a journey to find myself because i didn't do it in my teen yrs like normal ppl lol. I started my journey unconsciously by just being happy this yr and so far 2012 has been so good to me. What a difference it has made gained confidence, will power and freedom. Imagine what i could do withe the rest of the yr skies the limit. The first major steps for me was cutting some ppl out one by one. If it hurts you more to be around someone as much as you like them or love them drop them like they hot lol. Not the easiest but definitely important. Another is gratefulness to be alive, for the most part healthy and for the little things. I'm grateful for my family, carlos (my car lol), that i have a job, my grandma is alive (thank god) and for a whole bunch other stuff. It balances out what you don't have right now. For the balance scale is pretty heavy on what i do have so why sweat the other stuff. Another thing is i been having alot of me time: reading things i like, watching my gmen kick booty (Go Giants!!! whoooo i digress lol) spending time with ppl who are worth it and going places i want to go. Like the spa i deserve a massage reason becuz i'm me or going to the beach, i'm simple person don't judge lol. I signed up to volunteer at an animal shelter becuz my parents wont let me adopt one (like a boss...I'm really feeling myself at the moment lol...mind out the gutter ppl gosh :-P ), don't let one obstacle stop your journey there are alternate routes. So when does your journey begin?

birthday don'ts

Let me start by saying my bday kind of sucked balls (excuse my french lol) it turned out to be the first day of my pd (too much info i no lol) but anyway i dont think my advil kicked in right and i had no peanut m&m's (which is by the way pd must haves 2 put me in a super happy hormone triggered state lol)....Anyway cramps and all i thought that i would go shopping and walk around for like 3 hrs worst mistake of my life if i do say so myself it shall not be repeated :-P...So i got a cute high low dress for a party labor day wkend yaay and some cute heels at payless (don't judge they cute lol).

 I had taken 4 days off for my bday cuz it was suppose to be like a wkend girls thing but things happen and well no more girls :-P. So it became more of a family thing. Friday night my sisters made me a cake it was a hot mess lmao happy birthday hardly legible written in caramel sauce lmao and I had my first full glass of red wine disgusting if i do say so myself, had no effect on me till the next morning when i slept thru a thunder storm and woke up at 12:30 on becuz of the phone thank god for my uncle lol. On sunday had the best dinner at P.F. Chang's ordered my first drink actually don't remember wat it was called but it too tasted bad and it had vodka i did get slightly buzz and got a headache. Gotta say i waited to drink cuz i thought it would change me or something but no its just bad tasting drinks that give me headaches and make me sleepy I DON'T GET ALL THE HYPE i'm just saying lol. 

I wanted my bday to be something special and i thought it would be me and my friends but it was me and family it made it that much more special. Friends come and go but you stuck with family why not enjoy them :-)

Birthday plans

So 2mrw is the big day my birthday... (yaaaaaaay lol) I have almost made it 2 my 21st bday and still a virgin in these times i've practically reach sainthood lmao jk jk. So my plans include but are not limited to : adventureland, red lobster (hmm biscuits yum), the spa, getting my eyebrows done and shopping whooo. I was trying to hit the club or something get my booty shaking on but things dont always go as planned so the booty shaking can wait a few wks lol. Now for my bday outfit i wanna look cute but i dont want to over do it. I want to wear my cute frilly dress but i'm having doubts about it or i might just wear my leo shirt with some shorts or something idk i'll let u guys no l8a... if ya good  might even put up a pic ;-) ;-) lol.

Friends

Right now friends are not really working out for me partly my fault partly theirs. I have gotten 2 the point in my life where i am jus cutting ppl off becuz it wasn't worth the pain they caused. Slowly but surely my friends are dropping like flies. Some of it hurt more then others some of it was unexpected n some came  as no surprise. So i'm on loner status once again n 2 be honest i don't mind at all :-) I feel free maybe i'll actually stick 2 my work out plan lol...So my 21st birthday in less then 2wks still have no idea wat i'm doing i jus hope its something fun n memorable.

Virgin Monologuez: Monologue Monday: Where My Girls At?!?!

Totally been practicing this advice all yr gotta say i'm a happy person becuz of it :-) Virgin Monologuez: Monologue Monday: Where My Girls At?!?!: Surrounding yourself with a good group of girls is so important! For the longest time this was something that I didn’t really pay that mu...

pigeon poop

So yesterday wen i was walking 2 the car coming from the bank pigeon poop landed right on my hand wiped it off  thinking i had better had some good luck i know i'm not the only one this happened 2 lol...i'm hoping this luck shows up sometime this wk lol

Dorney park

I had the best time today at dorney park/wild water kingdom first time i ever went. Planned last minute but the best time ever i thought it was gonna rain n it did on the way home :-) while i was sleeping lol good times ;-)

Carlos issues/ weird things...

         So my car also known as "Carlos" lol had major issues this week it kept over heating because the water wasn't getting through the engine properly, then the radiator fan wasn't working, my ac and the front axle had issues thank god its all fixed and Carlos is back in good health it set my parents back a good amount of money though...As much as i love Carlos i cant wait to have the opportunity to buy a new one.

         Weird things i find attractive on a guy: a slight lisp, slight accent, guys who can dance, guys who have an active role in their kids life, guys holding babies lol, a guy's head about a wk after he's gotten a hair cut (i just wanna rub on his head lmao), a guy who loves his mama thats a preview to how he's gonna treat you, a guy who isn't afraid to show u love in front of his friends, etc...when i think of more i'll let ya know :-)

My dream involving my dad

          So last night had to be like the most weirdest dream ever. My dad who never talk about relationships related to us meaning his kids. He never talks about us getting married or boyfriends i think the thought scares him to be honest lol. So in my dream he's working somewhere idk where and he has this kid that like really looks up to him and he tells him i think that you and my daughter should date and he says im gonna set you guys up. In the dream i'm sooo weirded out by the fact that he totally approves of him because i dont think he thinks that  anybody is good enough for us. Then there is the fact that just because he approves of the guy doesn't mean i'll like him. So we hang out and i actually like him and i tell him "you have to go out with me just cuz my dad thinks its a good idea" and he's like no i actually like you so its all good.  So then we're kissing and my dad walks in i am soooo embarrassed lol and he's like he has to go to work...So let me describe him cuz maybe he's my ideal guy you never no lol he this brawny white boy with like super blond hair almost like platinum and he was cute. On line they say i should look into how im feeling in the dream more then whats actually happening and what i get from it is shock, humor and mushy it felt good to be around the guy one becuz i liked him and two becuz my dad approved of him. So whats ya guys interpretation of this dream?

My room

I've been wanting to change up my room for a while something different, clean modern and also me. So  after picking out some furniture i then had to figure out if it could fit in my room (probably should've down that first lol). So then i had to figure out how i would arrange hence the whole measurement of my room and viral room n tour so here are the 3 rooms i made let me no which one you guys like the best: 

1. http://www.homestyler.com/designprofile/56c3afda-0a3f-4562-ad6a-ac1dc34ed06c
2.http://www.homestyler.com/designprofile/1fe2445f-21e9-44c6-9791-4947f8e296ef
3.http://www.homestyler.com/designprofile/56c3afda-0a3f-4562-ad6a-ac1dc34ed06c


The 3rd one is my favorite except i decided to switch out the bookcase with a computer desk instead...Let me no what u guys think i really wanna here ur opinions...

Working out

Hey guys it been a while and i have to say that these past couple of months have been crazy. A couple of things have happened major influences on my life so here goes. My grandma almost died, I'm not talking to one of my best friends and i passed my super hard nursing class with a B. Thats a lot to take I know lol.  Lets start with one, my only grandma had a major stroke in may that left her without the ability to talk and swallow. Basically she couldn't eat by mouth and my parents (meaning my mom  lol) were like so against a feeding tube. It was a whole big thing until they realized that was the only way she could survive. She got the feeding tube, recognizes ppl and smiles or at least i think she smiles. Just thinking about it sometimes makes me cry because i just dont know what i'm gonna do without her :,(

While all of this is happening where is my so called best friend no where to be found. I hit her up she never writes back because she "too" busy because she's in college. No excuse to ignore ur friends especially ur so called best friend but maybe thats the title i take to seriously idk you guys tell me. She hits me up like once or twice with like dumb stuff which i ignored. As much as i hate to sound like some small kid she doesn't have time for me the whole yr then i dont have time for her at all but when summer roles around she all hears, no that just doesn't work for me. Its all or nothing she done this a couple of times and i've told her this is not cool and it hurts but it really hurts that she wasn't there when i needed her the most...

So guys you already know the great news i got a B in nursing can u believe it? :-) this semester for me academically has jus been a dream come true i hope this starts a streak that lasts thru graduation. Other then some major bumps in the road this yr for the first time in a I am generally happy and i gotta say it feels damn  good :-D nothing seems to faze me for long 2012 has been really good to me so far its only been 6 months, 6 more to go and i cant wait for what more surprises lie ahead.

Funny Single Quotes

Funny Single Quotes

Youtube

I was on youtube friday night looking at different weave styles I'd like to try and happen to fall on a natural hair video which seg wayed to this video ( http://youtu.be/ZzuDeAS0Yqo ) about natural hair. One thing lead to another and i have to say I am just in love with this dude. He's smart, funny, educated, good looking, confident and most importantly monogamous. He gives me hope that there are still some good brothers out there and chivalry is not dead (praise jesus,thank you lord and i also want to to thank his mama lol). He talks about the things that really matter the questions us girls want answered here's a few of some of his best videos:

http://youtu.be/maTIxEVvgYg   "sex & virgins"

http://youtu.be/e7_QaP7NiTo     "sex free relationships"

http://youtu.be/RXWdg9P5BN8 "Stuff I don't like in girls"

http://youtu.be/WVJddhUxelM   "Black women: chivalry"

Ok so that is just a few of his videos he has many more trust me... they're all imformative,funny, short and sweet so check it out and let me know what you guys think :-)

First Date

So saturday i went on my first ever date. First of all he show up almost 40 mins late. We decided to go bowling, who knew the bowling alleys were sooo packed on saturday nights?  So there was like a 40 min wait... I have to say some people do not live up to their text msgs smh. He came off as funny, goof ball and a nice person, he is a nice person but very quiet and i'm already awkward you get the picture.  So we bs talked about haiti and when it was finally time to bowl i find out this nigga had no money on him -___- seriously smh, so i paid for our shoes and for one game we were done in like 30mins. I guess he felt bad so he tried to buy us some food. we went across the street and got a slice of pizza and ate it in the car because the pizza shop was closing talked for a few finished eating and then i told him i had to get home and we parted ways.

After surviving this date lol i think i need to tweak what i want in a guy list:Someone older then me, in school and/or working, tall, nice, decent looking, preferably of haitian descent....Scratch the haitian descent part its not everything i thought it would be and add funny with a capital F, sarcastic and jus a lil bit nerdy lets hope that this works out better lol.

One tree hill series finale :,-(

I'm so sad i feel like a piece of me is being laid to rest. It started in 2003 I was 12 yrs old my grandpa had just died and I started watching this show on the wb11. Nine yrs later i'm almost 21 yrs old and almost to the day that my grandpa died one tree hill is laid to rest.The journey has been bumpy and full of tears but it has made me the person i am today So thank you oth its been a hell of a ride http://youtu.be/8gFCW3PHBws 

21st Birthday ideas?

So you guys i turn 21 a few months from now and  have no clue what to do...You guys got any ideas? Please help a sister out cause I am clueless :-p

Count on youself -_-

I'm so annoyed I try to be the best friend in everybody else's time of need and thats ok but where the fuck is everybody when I need help... gone this is not fucking mutual its be there when i need you but we don't have time when your down dead ass my parents are right don't count on anyone in your time of need and you won't be surprised when they let you down...

Test Results

So according to some random test that i took online this is the kind of guy i need in my life...I gotta say that i do agree lol :-)

THE ISSUES THAT LEAD TO MISUNDERSTANDING AND CONFLICT

• ACCOMPLISHMENT really boils down to social and economic stability -- we're talking about issues like a partner's profession, level of success and noteworthy achievement, being socially revered and having a respectable lifestyle.

• PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY really boils down to raw physical and sexual attraction -- we're talking about issues like a partner's physical appearance, attitudes toward sex and sensual style.

• DRIVE really boils down to mental and physical wellness -- we're talking about issues like a partner's physical fitness, zest for life, energy level and openness to new opportunities.

WHAT YOU "SAY" YOU WANT

Your scores on the "Lost in Translation Test" suggest that you want a man who's "highly accomplished, moderately embraces outward physical chemistry and is highly driven."

WHAT YOU "REALLY" WANT

According to relationship experts, what you seem to be looking for is a "PROTECTOR." A protector is well-poised to meet the hidden or unspoken needs you might actually be trying to fill in a search for a relationship. A protector is...

• Someone with a strong sense of self, purpose and importance that lends itself to bolstering your personal identity, sense of worth and even social image.

• Someone who can provide you (and any present or future children) with financial stability that is or has been lacking in your life.

• Someone who'll make you feel young and alive, and who'll renew your passion for life by opening your eyes to new experiences and opportunities.

• Someone who's ready and able to give you freedom and support for your personal or professional goals.

• Someone who can be vulnerable and unafraid to show kindness and physical affection and emotional connection to you in public.

• Someone with strong self-control and patience, who'll consult your feelings and preferences rather than be domineering and controlling.

• Someone who'll always strive to make you feel attractive, desirable and loved by giving you undivided attention and a sense of physical security.

• Someone strives for longevity by being true to a physically and psychologically healthy lifestyle, which includes taking pride in his appearance and working at being physically attractive to you.

GO FISHING!

To increase your odds of finding an PROTECTOR, look or listen for these key words or themes when you search profiles or talk to romantic prospects: social, family oriented, work ethic, generous, accommodating, respectful, agreeable, philosophical, patient, thoughtful, confident, settled, responsive, intuitive, loyal, healthy, fit, protective and focused.

Standards

My friends say that i have such high  standards thats why I can't find a guy...So i've thought about and figured out what i really want here goes: Someone older then me, in school and/or working, tall, nice, decent looking, preferably of haitian descent but hey beggars can't be choosers right. Anyway is that really high standards or just the minimal standards? What i've learned is whenever i've dropped those standards just a tiny bit it doesn't work out and so no more dropping them i deserve better plan and simple :-) So my msg to all guys better get your game right cause I ain't havin it...

Bar :-P

So 2day was one my bffs 21st birthday so we went roller skating at which i forgot everything i've learned about skating lol. Saw some cute guys there showing off but they were probably younger then me but hey it was fun to look lol. Let me tell you all my muscles are gonna feel the burn 2mrw after that skating. So after that we went to dinner decided on t.g.i.f. being that it is saturday night there was a hour and a half  wait -_- we walked out of there so fast lol there was a trail of smoke. Next best thing ihop jus cuz it was closer. We stuff our faces then proceed to get some alcohol legally lol whoo whoo (I have to mention that i didn't drink a drop of it drinking is just not me) So we go to the bar my first time going they get like three rounds of corona the music sucks at first so things are kind of dead. I'm like if this is bar life i don't need this i could sit and be bored at home. So when the music finally gets good we dance and when they happen to on some of that good reggae i danced lol to everyones shock i did ok if i do say so myself and i didn't even have to drink.The only thing that sucked about 2nite was being the 3rd wheel when all the couples were making kissy faces or jus plain making out...Can you say awkward?  I  was jus standing there the lone ranger. Although apparently i almost got raped by some drunk guy on the dance floor lol. Now if i can only get a sober guy to want me i'll be set lol. Who knew that a nice guy was so hard to find?

Hint hint ;-) ;-)

So my mom has been talking about boys and wedding dresses for like the past month she'll bring it up out of no where for example:
Mom: what ru doing 2day?
Me: Nothing
Mom how r ur friends?
Me: good
Mom: you need to start saving money
Me: ok  I am
Mom: so you can by a really nice wedding dress and have a nice wedding
Me: what the hell ru talking about your so random i'm not even remotely dating anybody
Mom: i know so start planning a head :-)
Me: smh lol

This is the basic convo with my mom.. Can somebody agree with me that this is weird? or is it just me?

Dreams

Did u guys know that when you have a dream about a person that you know they wanna see you and/or miss you? I just thought that it was really good to know and fun :-)

Passing

Its mid terms and i'm still passing all my classes including nursing yaaaay me. I got a 82 on my first nursing test im sooooo proud even though i came 40mins late. So far so good i hope to keep it up hows everything wit u guys?

We are the champions...

WOOOOO we did it we beat the patriots Again Superbowl champions in the house go giants go giants :-D....I been telling ya to have faith in my team!!

My week

So I'm in class right now as we speak bored out my mind... I actually doing my h.w. for other classes while in here. I kind of been a little lazy but i'm back on track for the moment till this weekend at which point it will be Superbowl sunday yaaay Go Giants!!!!! I will be stuffing my face that whole day :-)...In other news i finally got cable and internet at my house ( the legal way ;-) I'm  hype i no lol) 

My parents are so suspicious of my life like i'm some secret agent leading a double life. My dad told my mom that he thinks that i have a bf i just don't want to tell them about it. Yeah, right I couldn't get a boyfriend if he was a cold lmao, guys r jus not feeling me at the moment.  Theres so much pressure on me to hook up with a guys its not happening does that make me weird?

This just in...

I'm back in skool still nursing trying to do the best that i can hopefully it will be enough this time :-) pray for me ya.... In other news my giants are going to the Superbowl wooooooooo!!! All the doubters all i can say is thank you for motivating us :-)... Join me next week to learn how i'm doing in skool and if Heidi Klum and Seal are still together... Collegegerlz out

Tattoo

It seems everybody but me has jumped on the tattoo band wagon no longer are ppl trying to hide them from their parents or on job interviews. Now there getting them done even on their faces...Really... i get the whole art and express yourself ppl but do you really need your arms legs chest and back done? Back in the day i wanted to get one for sentimental reasons but i got over it. I work at the hospital and i see all the 80 and 90 year old's tattoos trust me wen i tell you they are unrecognizable if they don't tell you what they were, you can't even guess lol but hey that just me :-P

Reunited

After like 8 yrs of not seeing my uncle's ex who use to live with us and her son basically my cousin which is what i consider him lol. They finally came to the house it was so crazy and unexpected i was jus so happy to see them. It brought back so many memories which we laughed our asses off about....Good times we're supposedly suppose to meet up saturday just to hang out and catch up i hope they come cause i miss them. I just had to share that with you guys cause it mad my day/week lol.

So that title also stands for the guy i been talking to finally met up with him this past thurday and he is totally not what i expected. First off he looks like my cousin's husband ew, second i think he has a kid and third he lied about his tattoos. He's also a lazy cheap ass how you ask me out and expect me to pay for dinner? If we were together yea i would take you out but he barely knows me what the hell :-P total turn off. Anyway he lies about little stuff and then slips up on it like what else are you lying about? So i guess its on to the next one :-( 

A better me

So i went to the doctor today and she basically told me that i'm bordering obesity or at least thats how i heard it lol. My BMI (body mass index) is 29 and the norms are 22-25. I cut out most fast food places except chinese food which is probably like the worse one smh. I need to lose about 20 to 25 lbs now i am not very tall i'm wondering how big my head is gonna look if i were to be that skinny but hey gotta try. So heres wat i decided to to do first is no more fast food and eating out every wk period and only all natural drinks or water. The biggest thing is for me to get back in the gym back to my zumba classes which i loved. I think my major problem is I don't have a buddy to do this with :-(. I think these are good changes not so much a drastic change that can't be maintained. So i begin today January 6, 2012 at 153 lbs goal weight 125 but if i get to 130 i will do cart wheels lol even though i don't know how. So anybody wanna buddy up with me?

New Year New Hopes

Hey guys first post of 2012 yaaaay lol...Ok so let me cut down to the chase and tell ya how the club went...lame idk if i went with the wrong ppl or the wrong club or maybe its becuz i didn't drink? idk the music was good the food was good but the only ppl that asked me to dance were my friends :-P. Oh well at least i tried it.

Soo about the guy i been talking to...We're still talking (about nothing in particular) I still don't feel like he likes me as much as he's claiming and idk if i even want him in life becuz his past makes my past look angel like and he doesn't sound like he believes half the the stuff i tell him about myself which are facts...its like being on trial :-(...Maybe i should kick him to the curb? I think i'll make a pros and con list to be sure.

Pros                                                    Cons

tall                                                      High school dropout
deep voice                                          Jail time
Haitian                                                Rude
simliar music                                      Calls at nite
bilingual                                             Told me i had "walls"
lives close
has a job
has a car

What do you guys think should i quit him?