Sunday, December 11, 2011

My "sexual" orientation

So let me explain that title i am a 20 yr old women/ college student neva had a bf, haven't had my first kiss let alone lose my virginity. Yes i am a rare breed at this point in my life or so i been told. I dress comfortable jeans, sweat pants, thugs (my fake uggs lol) like any other college student but according to my friends im a total weird loser...They didn't exactly say that but thats how i read it in my mind. To them normalcy is having already had a bf and ur virginity is history yrs ago. But since i've moved to long island not one decent guy has asked me out. the crack heads, bums, dead beats, drop outs, old creepy guys and players are all i get. But according to my friends my "standards" are to high im sorry if thats the "creme de la creme" then i'll be a snobby bitch and not answer. They also say i don't dress girly enough exact quote is "you dress like a construction worker" to be honest like who am i trying to impress I can look good wen i want to even sexy if i do say so myself ;);) but anyway i been telling u my life's story for a reason. They think im a lesbian on the low its sooo funny i forgot to laugh -_______- excuse me for not sharing my vagina like the next celeb scandal or lowering my standards to make me seem "normal". I was neva normal to be normal now would being going against myself and my unique person.  I honestly think im being raised in the wrong era. Guys don't ask girls out anymore, if ur not having sex ur considered weird and if ur shy ur a lesbian. If im going to share myself with someone mentally let alone physically u have to be so important to me. You having 2 consider me giving everything to more special then i do. I want you to want me because i Don't have to give a thing thats when i'll give everything... until that guy come along "i'll be the weird virgin 20 yr old who dresses like a construction worker and who everybody thinks is a lesbian" ....Now u no my story lets hear yours it can't be any worse then that... 

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