Get this...

So guess wat guys? I officially know wat i'm doing for new years :-) gonna hit the club my first time ever you guys. I'm sooo excited and nervous at the same time i hope its fun. I've been told i'll have a better time if i drink a little but idk about that... So ya know i had to do it big i got the sexiest red pumps lol...

                                          

;-) 

Ok so i been talking to this guy for like a few wks and I couldn't really read him. I would text him he would take forever to write back or not at all. So yesterday we were talking on the phone and he like dropped a bomb on me. Oh I'm really feeling you and idk how to act because i'm not getting no feedback from you... I really like you i want you to be my girl i want you to be comfortable with me and i'm willing to wait for you blah blah blah...And i'm like damn that is a lot to process at least for me lol. I'm not the kind of person that wears my heart on my sleeve no one really knows how i feel about a certain thing unless i let them know a lot of people have called me emotionless but it never really bothered me until now am i that cold? But anyway he says all this stuff and honestly idk if i believe him because i seen how ppl act when they like someone and what he's doing ain't it. I think he hits me up when bored thats fine but messing with ppls emotions is not nice making up lies and wat not...So i'm hoping to maybe meet a nice guy at the club idk how much luck I'll have with that lol...I'll let you guys know how everything goes :-) Happy News Years love ya see next year guys!!!

Merry Christmas

I hope you guys enjoy your holiday :-) I'm trying to enjoy mine considering... I plan enjoy it to the fullest

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I feel so stupid right now whats wrong with me that I can't pass nursing...

Med-surg final

Ok i have been severely traumatized, I need a hug, some tissues and a passing grade stat. I studied went to tutoring and honestly gave it my best but as usual that is not enough. I prayed, my mom prayed and even you guys prayed but i honestly don't think that was enough. why? because my sweet darling of a teacher screwed us a new asshole by NOT following what she told us to review and get this using somebody else's final that actually teaches...Its WONDERFULL I know I'm delighted -___- Its so great i'm on the border of crying....

"funny"

Its funny how a guy could be into one moment but totally ignore/dis you the next. I wanna get to know you, I'm really feeling you and other bs lines like that lol are jus an in. They  act all nice,  friendly, gentle and perfect till things don't go their way at which point they throw a man tantrum. They stop calling, writing, texting whatever.... I'm starting to think that all guys are the same even though i tried to fight that line tooth and nail. As much as it pains me to say i was wrong alls guys are the same they think with their little head and are all shallow... Till proof proves other wise thats my final answer :-P

My "sexual" orientation

So let me explain that title i am a 20 yr old women/ college student neva had a bf, haven't had my first kiss let alone lose my virginity. Yes i am a rare breed at this point in my life or so i been told. I dress comfortable jeans, sweat pants, thugs (my fake uggs lol) like any other college student but according to my friends im a total weird loser...They didn't exactly say that but thats how i read it in my mind. To them normalcy is having already had a bf and ur virginity is history yrs ago. But since i've moved to long island not one decent guy has asked me out. the crack heads, bums, dead beats, drop outs, old creepy guys and players are all i get. But according to my friends my "standards" are to high im sorry if thats the "creme de la creme" then i'll be a snobby bitch and not answer. They also say i don't dress girly enough exact quote is "you dress like a construction worker" to be honest like who am i trying to impress I can look good wen i want to even sexy if i do say so myself ;);) but anyway i been telling u my life's story for a reason. They think im a lesbian on the low its sooo funny i forgot to laugh -_______- excuse me for not sharing my vagina like the next celeb scandal or lowering my standards to make me seem "normal". I was neva normal to be normal now would being going against myself and my unique person.  I honestly think im being raised in the wrong era. Guys don't ask girls out anymore, if ur not having sex ur considered weird and if ur shy ur a lesbian. If im going to share myself with someone mentally let alone physically u have to be so important to me. You having 2 consider me giving everything to more special then i do. I want you to want me because i Don't have to give a thing thats when i'll give everything... until that guy come along "i'll be the weird virgin 20 yr old who dresses like a construction worker and who everybody thinks is a lesbian" ....Now u no my story lets hear yours it can't be any worse then that... 

My test

I'm soooo proud of myself right now i got my first good grade in med surg yesturday an 88 :-). May not be the best but i studied my ass and prayed, my momma prayed and i did it, woooooo. O k now all i need is a good grade on the final and i might actually pass my class. Clinical actually wasn't that bad this year it was the actual class. Pray for me ya i gotta remember a semester worth of stuff in 2 wks...Its can be done god willing *crosses fingers*