"Open invitation"

That is the title of my baby tyrese's neew album showing everybody in the music biz that he is a true "Rtist" nearly fives years without releasing an album his goes straight to the top, that is true talent for you. He's doing it without help with the release being from his record label "voltron". I already got my two favorite songs from the album and i havent even heard the whole thing as of yet. "Stay" which is a remake of teddy pendergrass http://youtu.be/51mR-z80X_o & "Best of me" http://youtu.be/kYQWVBjP0_k that man has jus song his way right in to my heart lmao cheesy i know. Honestly anybody that can sing that well need to hit me up we will definately hit it off. His music jus sing to my lonely soul... Anyway don't take my word for it check it out for ur selves let me know what ya think of my baby's new album ;-)

Run

Idk if its the fact that b4 i went to sleep last nite my fortune said that "someone who admires me is hidden b4 my eyes" but i had the craziest dream last nite. It was me talking to some guy and his friend comes up to me and he's like "i noticed u around n i'm really feeling u" my reaction is to run off like a chicken with its head cut off, lmao. My friend catches up with me i start screaming at him like "why didn't u tell me he liked me?". He starts saying "u should give him a chance, he's a real nice guy and he likes u, he'll treat u right not like those other losers." So this whole dream is this kid chasing me saying "i like u go out with me" and me running away finding odd places to hide. At one point i hid in my room under the covers (not my brightest moment lol) he comes in and is like i c u and starts pulling the covers. We have  tug of war n he starts winning at which point i start yelling for my dad. He doesn't pay any attention to me until i shout out that theres a guy i my room...I don't remember the rest of it but i gotta say i thought it was pretty funny. According to google.com my dream of being chased is related to conflict and anxiety...I'm all for interpretations so let me know wat u think :-)

The walls are closing in

The walls are closing in on me and i don't know what to do. Every time i think I might get out of this quick sand i'm jus sucked in deeper  i feel the giraffe in this link http://youtu.be/G_Z3lmidmrY just not the whole dying thing in the literal sense maybe mentally...Skool sucks as usual and once again has brought me to tears...Its becoming a monday afternoon ritual not one i wish to continue. I called the counseling service at my skool and left a message about an appt. im hoping that talking 2 somebody away from the big picture will give me new perspective.

The one guy that i actaully liked and was talking to turns into jackal hyde and goes overly ridiculous ova me not picking up the phone while at my cuzzin's wake (may she RIP). I totally went off on him and dropped him like he was hot. It was the last straw of things that i jus wasn't willing to put up with. He's 23 not in skool, not planning on going to skool, in a bad retail job, no car or college degree and worst of all he wants to be famous...Grow up!! ur an adult if you want to be famous you gotta work ur ass off and be talented... Its a one in a million chance and he had no back up plan...Although i don't have a back up plan either if nursing doesn't work out, but hey im in skool at least theres always opportunity for  something...what exactly idk :-P...If you guys can make better sense of my life hook a sister up n let me no cuz its not doing much for me...

:-(

 I thought this semester would be different...guess not. Always on the border of utter failure or barely passing. Evybody is always like you can do it but its so hard... I'm starting to think its impossible. The big question always on my mind nowadays what do i do if nursing doesn't work out? its just breaking my heart that i'm not good enough... a failure to my parents and to myself...I lose sleep and cry over this i just feel like i'm slowly losing my sanity a semester at a time...