2012

Hey guys its been awhile... Its been a crazy few months with Hurricane sandy and then the snow storm. Lets not forget the week and a half of school missed which i am still paying for now -_- lol. If that wasn't enough i got sick twice which eventually turned into an ear infection. The good news is that i'm getting better, I got a new xbox 360 with kinect and zumba, and my parents saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to gieco lmao.  School is kicking my but as usual but i've decided to not let it stress me out and let god take care of it while i do my part :-). 

Some exciting news guys I told you how I had a fall out with a couple of friends this year and i;m glad  to say that i have made new ones :-) my clinical crew and I this year have really connected we all have like this bond and caring for each other. With that being said we went out last week and got totally hammered lmao we went bar hoping and lets just say my new name is twerk team Dede. Apparently I am a dancing fool when i get drunk and act like my sister lol. So me and this white boy that can dance brought the house down lol smh never thought i would use those words to describe myself epic. 

Another thing that happened is over the summer I saw somebody from my childhood at a family party always had a crush on him. So a  few weeks ago he hits me up actually like the day after thanksgiving. So he hit me up saying that he thought that i was a cool person and he would like to take me out. I'm like omg this is so cool I tell him yea, you know i'm interested. So we start talking and everything is going well then i find out that he is not who i thought he was. First of he's divorced which doesn't really bother me then he's like i got two kids who live with me, I'm like woah ok, then he's like i have two other kids by two different baby mamas other then his ex-wife and i'm like WTF. That is on a whole different level like Maury  or Jerry springer. I told him i was not interested so fast i think his head spun off. That is way too much baggage for even a regular person who's been in a relationship before, but for me who's had no real involvement its murder. 

Anyway I've learned alot about myself this year i thought i would share a few with you because i love you guys that much:

1. I don't take ANY sh*t from no one 
2. I am pretty
3. Momma is always right (don't tell her i told ya that lol)
4. The people you love don't necessarily love you the same
5. I have periodontal disease (No its not contagious lol)
6. Don''t to be afraid of change :-)
7. God has a sense of humor and he is awesome for a reason
8. Being a virgin is so cool
9. People are human don't put people on a pedestal that they don't deserve
10. Last but not least, love yourself and your own company because your gonna be together a while :-)

2012 your awesome thanks for the memories hope you go out with a bang!!!! That being said guys i hope you share what you've learned about yourselves this year in comment. See you guys l8a :-)

The whole world...

Is me or is the whole world out to get me i can't do anything right i'm not smart enough, pretty enough or tall enough....What is enough? because anything and everything i do can't possibly be it. Please enlighten my poor lost soul  because I AM LOST!!!!!! I am a lil angry at the moment sorry guys... as you can tell it hasn't been the best day :-P.

So I wanted to tell you guys that I got a new old car lol I named it charlie (i consider that name steady and reliable so hopefully charlie doesn't prove me wrong) he's a black nissan altima and he's the new (only...sigh) man in my life. Carlos was more of a bad boy so I've moved on to the sweet heart type lmao....

I love this video

Just once...

I want a decent guy that I actually like to walk up to and say :I noticed you around and seem like a nice person i'd really like to get to know maybe we could exchange numbers? (or i really want to get to know do you wanna go out sometime?) i'm just putting it out there lol...By the way i totally did a sucky job at my first nursing test not super bad but not excellent either in the 70's reign.  I'm carpooling with some classmates to clinical tell me why my car breaks down halfway there on the highway at 6 in the morning. So my dad rescues us and we make it on time but my car is shot smh poor Carlos :-( so now i'm carless (shopping for a car on a strict budget) not fun i feel like somebody cut off my legs. So there are 2 guys in my nursing class who I think are cute one in my clinical group who i actually say a few words to but theres always some girl riding his shlong lol so i don't think he's gonna go for super shy me. the other guy total eye candy and i have 2 classes with him :-D but theres still no hope but my eyes get plenty of candy lol

I'm sick :-(

You guys i'm sick and i need a nurse/doctor any takers?....No, i guess i need 2 do the job  myself :-P. So much going on these past couple of weeks i guess its all catching up 2 me. So much has happened in the span of 2 wks. One is i found out that I have periodontal disease or gingivitis. Its bitter sweet because it really does explain a lot, glad to finally no that its not all in my head and it sucks who wants a disease u no wat i mean... second skool has started 4 me once again got 2 admit i was kinda excited n i've had my first full wk of skool n i'm not dead yet lol but things can change very quickly so i'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts. 

Last but not least i went clubbing i think i did it right this time lol. It was n all black affair 4 one of my friend's birthday danced the nite away or kind of when my feet weren't hurting lol.  I danced with my friend n some random guy lol. i must say i think i was like the worst dancer there lmao n that is sad smh but i digress. Idid alot of observing as bad as thats sounds lol but i cant help it. It was so weird 2 actually have guys come up 2 me (not that we talked or anything) i was just flattered u no. One who i think was flat out drunk when i was about 2 leave called me over me being the goofball that i'm becomes a smiling fool lol. i nod or wat ever n tell him no thanks. He was there the whole nite didn't notice me at all but becuz i guess he thought he would leave alone or somethig n tried 2 reach out 2 me (wrong choice buddy lol). it was fun but i got home at 6am n had work at 8 am not my best idea but didn't think i would be out that late smh lol

Weavtastic

So got my first full head weave satuurday and it looks nice i can't complain right. The thing that gets 2 me, evybody is like you look so nice love ur hair, love ur dress and im grateful, who doesn't like 2 be complimented; Where are the compliments when my hair is natural? A lot of guys are always like i don't like weaves, weaves are this and that but they only checking the girls with the weaves :-P (where they do that at?) You say you want this and that but your actions go in the opposite direction lol actions speak louder then words,  I'm just saying...any thoughts?

Spa day

So i finally had my spa day on wednesday after getting a last minute appt the day of lol, because evybody that was invited bailed sucks for them :-P. So i went alone got lost 4 like 30mins but i finally made it and when i got there i was glad i went alone i didnt have to worry about anybody but myself. I got the citrus body scrub with the swedish massage 2 hrs worth. It was so worth it but the whole time i keep thinking i hope she doesnt choose this exact moment 2 turn into a lesbian lmao. Then after being totally relaxed i had 2 drive home which kind of sucked. it was fun though i totally have to do it again.