I'm sick :-(

You guys i'm sick and i need a nurse/doctor any takers?....No, i guess i need 2 do the job  myself :-P. So much going on these past couple of weeks i guess its all catching up 2 me. So much has happened in the span of 2 wks. One is i found out that I have periodontal disease or gingivitis. Its bitter sweet because it really does explain a lot, glad to finally no that its not all in my head and it sucks who wants a disease u no wat i mean... second skool has started 4 me once again got 2 admit i was kinda excited n i've had my first full wk of skool n i'm not dead yet lol but things can change very quickly so i'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts. 

Last but not least i went clubbing i think i did it right this time lol. It was n all black affair 4 one of my friend's birthday danced the nite away or kind of when my feet weren't hurting lol.  I danced with my friend n some random guy lol. i must say i think i was like the worst dancer there lmao n that is sad smh but i digress. Idid alot of observing as bad as thats sounds lol but i cant help it. It was so weird 2 actually have guys come up 2 me (not that we talked or anything) i was just flattered u no. One who i think was flat out drunk when i was about 2 leave called me over me being the goofball that i'm becomes a smiling fool lol. i nod or wat ever n tell him no thanks. He was there the whole nite didn't notice me at all but becuz i guess he thought he would leave alone or somethig n tried 2 reach out 2 me (wrong choice buddy lol). it was fun but i got home at 6am n had work at 8 am not my best idea but didn't think i would be out that late smh lol

Weavtastic

So got my first full head weave satuurday and it looks nice i can't complain right. The thing that gets 2 me, evybody is like you look so nice love ur hair, love ur dress and im grateful, who doesn't like 2 be complimented; Where are the compliments when my hair is natural? A lot of guys are always like i don't like weaves, weaves are this and that but they only checking the girls with the weaves :-P (where they do that at?) You say you want this and that but your actions go in the opposite direction lol actions speak louder then words,  I'm just saying...any thoughts?

Spa day

So i finally had my spa day on wednesday after getting a last minute appt the day of lol, because evybody that was invited bailed sucks for them :-P. So i went alone got lost 4 like 30mins but i finally made it and when i got there i was glad i went alone i didnt have to worry about anybody but myself. I got the citrus body scrub with the swedish massage 2 hrs worth. It was so worth it but the whole time i keep thinking i hope she doesnt choose this exact moment 2 turn into a lesbian lmao. Then after being totally relaxed i had 2 drive home which kind of sucked. it was fun though i totally have to do it again.

Me Journey

I have decided to go on a me journey. Its bettering myself thru positive thinking, gratefulness and fufillment. Its a journey to find myself because i didn't do it in my teen yrs like normal ppl lol. I started my journey unconsciously by just being happy this yr and so far 2012 has been so good to me. What a difference it has made gained confidence, will power and freedom. Imagine what i could do withe the rest of the yr skies the limit. The first major steps for me was cutting some ppl out one by one. If it hurts you more to be around someone as much as you like them or love them drop them like they hot lol. Not the easiest but definitely important. Another is gratefulness to be alive, for the most part healthy and for the little things. I'm grateful for my family, carlos (my car lol), that i have a job, my grandma is alive (thank god) and for a whole bunch other stuff. It balances out what you don't have right now. For the balance scale is pretty heavy on what i do have so why sweat the other stuff. Another thing is i been having alot of me time: reading things i like, watching my gmen kick booty (Go Giants!!! whoooo i digress lol) spending time with ppl who are worth it and going places i want to go. Like the spa i deserve a massage reason becuz i'm me or going to the beach, i'm simple person don't judge lol. I signed up to volunteer at an animal shelter becuz my parents wont let me adopt one (like a boss...I'm really feeling myself at the moment lol...mind out the gutter ppl gosh :-P ), don't let one obstacle stop your journey there are alternate routes. So when does your journey begin?

birthday don'ts

Let me start by saying my bday kind of sucked balls (excuse my french lol) it turned out to be the first day of my pd (too much info i no lol) but anyway i dont think my advil kicked in right and i had no peanut m&m's (which is by the way pd must haves 2 put me in a super happy hormone triggered state lol)....Anyway cramps and all i thought that i would go shopping and walk around for like 3 hrs worst mistake of my life if i do say so myself it shall not be repeated :-P...So i got a cute high low dress for a party labor day wkend yaay and some cute heels at payless (don't judge they cute lol).

 I had taken 4 days off for my bday cuz it was suppose to be like a wkend girls thing but things happen and well no more girls :-P. So it became more of a family thing. Friday night my sisters made me a cake it was a hot mess lmao happy birthday hardly legible written in caramel sauce lmao and I had my first full glass of red wine disgusting if i do say so myself, had no effect on me till the next morning when i slept thru a thunder storm and woke up at 12:30 on becuz of the phone thank god for my uncle lol. On sunday had the best dinner at P.F. Chang's ordered my first drink actually don't remember wat it was called but it too tasted bad and it had vodka i did get slightly buzz and got a headache. Gotta say i waited to drink cuz i thought it would change me or something but no its just bad tasting drinks that give me headaches and make me sleepy I DON'T GET ALL THE HYPE i'm just saying lol. 

I wanted my bday to be something special and i thought it would be me and my friends but it was me and family it made it that much more special. Friends come and go but you stuck with family why not enjoy them :-)

Birthday plans

So 2mrw is the big day my birthday... (yaaaaaaay lol) I have almost made it 2 my 21st bday and still a virgin in these times i've practically reach sainthood lmao jk jk. So my plans include but are not limited to : adventureland, red lobster (hmm biscuits yum), the spa, getting my eyebrows done and shopping whooo. I was trying to hit the club or something get my booty shaking on but things dont always go as planned so the booty shaking can wait a few wks lol. Now for my bday outfit i wanna look cute but i dont want to over do it. I want to wear my cute frilly dress but i'm having doubts about it or i might just wear my leo shirt with some shorts or something idk i'll let u guys no l8a... if ya good  might even put up a pic ;-) ;-) lol.

Friends

Right now friends are not really working out for me partly my fault partly theirs. I have gotten 2 the point in my life where i am jus cutting ppl off becuz it wasn't worth the pain they caused. Slowly but surely my friends are dropping like flies. Some of it hurt more then others some of it was unexpected n some came  as no surprise. So i'm on loner status once again n 2 be honest i don't mind at all :-) I feel free maybe i'll actually stick 2 my work out plan lol...So my 21st birthday in less then 2wks still have no idea wat i'm doing i jus hope its something fun n memorable.