Dreams/Guys

Lately I been dreaming about guys nonstop lol...Does any body no wat this means? Cuz I haven't got a clue...Theres nothing frisky so get ur minds out the gutta lol. Its jus me either random guys flirting wit me or me flirting wit them but I always wake up before we ever get the chance 2 exchange numbers or go out. Usually my dreams r jus plan weird but now its either I subconciously like flirting, my single days r numbered or watever else u guys can think of lol...Its been going on for wks now can anybody help a sister out?

Summer time

My favorite time of the yr :-) the weather is nice n the guys r hot (most of the time at least lol) So far its been a good vacation been doing nothing but working,chilling n sleeping now this is the life lol...I finally got my dress for the engagement party that is this Saturday by the way. My shoes are banging if I do say so myself :-) I'm getting my eyebrows done 2mrw, my nail done Friday, my hair n make up on saturday...(at which point I will be broke lol) Ok this is gonna sound real nerdy u guys so don't judge me lol...I no I'm gonna look hot for the party not becuz of wat I mentioned above but becuz I'm ovulating lmao I no I actually pay attention in class lol...So wat ru guys up 2?

Skools out

N u no wat dat means? nothing I'll be dividing my time working and relaxing lol...Wat ru guys doing for the summer? Last summer i started this blog and i really like it this yr im hoping to do something else or a new hobby...any ideas? Maybe a summer romance wouldnt dat be great :-).... yea dats not happening so lets think of things dat r possible lol. It so good to be out of skool no deadlines or impending dooms lol, i would also like to mention dat i passed all of my classes yaaay me. 

I'm also so excited for my friend from skool as u guys no her shes getting married yaaaay...n she made me her maid of honor double yaaaay.I found the perfect dress for her engagement party but my boobies were like popping out of it n it was bordering hoochie. So i had 2 order a bigger from like a different state, i really hoping it looks as good cuz if it dont im gonna be really mad...so pray for me guys.

Nursing the journey

So my friend from skool who i met in class the first day of college in 09 has officially left nursing after 2 yrs of blood sweat n tears. She switched her major to social work. Well i'm sad that we won't continue n finish this journey together... but you gotta do wat makes u happy. To be honest i neva felt so alone as u can see by my out burst "I'm done". Last semester i went thru so much with my nursing classes but knowing i wasn't alone always eased the pain, but that is no more i  am on my own now officially.This is like a major let down one of many 2 be honest. Although i no its bad to go backwards i cant help myself these past few yrs i been coming out my shell n its not helping that i'm constantly disappointed. I feel like i was fine b4 wen i was in turtle mode i didn't need anybody. So as a safety mechanism  i going back 2 it.Maybe i come out after college idk...

I'm done

I'm really tired of putting myself out there getting comfortable with a person jus so that person leaves one way or another.Either that be friends or other wise... I no ppl r suppose 2 come n go in ur life its part of the "adventure" n growing up, but im tired of it, seriously. I'm tired of the disappointments, the hurt n the stress. Im going thru enough dealing wit skool. So from now on im on lockdown mode... I don't want new friends, family or watever... At this point, im jus passing thru, don't notice me at all...

Wrestling

I grew up on wrestling n spent many a nights being terrorized by my older cuzzins about the different characters. Over the the yrs I have continued this love hate relationship. Cheering on the good guys n sometimes the bad guys. After so long of being entertained by these great human beings i've come to realize now wat they put their bodies thru each n evy wk for our entertainment. You see the stories in the news every couple of yrs of one of these super stars dying unfortunate deaths there primes. Not even hitting the age of 50. 

The common denominators seem to be suicide, overdose (usually steroids and/or cocaine)  or heart attacks. The steroids i think seem to play a major role in all three forms of death. They wanna be stronger, faster and bigger based on our demands (the public) of what real "men" should look like, act like. Which is totally unrealistic, these r human beings, wit families, wit kids. If u go to the gym daily n don't look all beef up n juiced up, y should they? They shape their bodies on the images of what "we" want don't u think its time we changed wat a "man' looks like?

Then there r the overdoses. Always trying to get the better stuff, the stronger stuff. For some it was about the high. Mixing different things to try to get the better look and the best high. The others it was about beating the competition. All in all they reached that ultimate high that they wont come back from. 

Not to mention wat it does to the brain. The roid rage, the aggression and the suicide. All of those hormones from the steroids messes wit the chemistry in their brains not to mention the numerous concussions. A perfect example of this is one of the best wrestlers of all time hands down chris benoit (god rest his soul). If u looked at his brain there was so much scar tissue and holes.

How can a human being function properly wen his brain looks like this?

Now for the matters of the heart attacks another great wrestler Eddie guerrero aka "latino heat" (may he also  rest in peace). Steroids r hormones that make the muscles bigger.Ur heart is also a muscle the biggest muscle u have .It can only pump so much n get so big eventually its gonna burn out. Put on top of that if u already had a heart condition, the odds r not in ur favor. Take a look at wat "we" is doing to family men, brothers,fathers and husbands. Is it worth it?

Surprise party

Omg  saturday was crazy. We had a surprise party for one of my bffs. First we had 2 figure out where we were gonna have it, then food, music, drinks all while not letting her no, which was really hard. Tell me y i also had 2 pick like evyones gift for her like im some kind of expert (not)...It was all worth it she was so surprised and had no clue...The look on her face was priceless... She started crying so then i decided 2 tell her we love her, n that this time we actually mean it lol... Wat did u guys do the wkend? Did i mention that i was on springbreak this wk? Woooo im gonna sleep like its 1999 lol.