:-(

 I thought this semester would be different...guess not. Always on the border of utter failure or barely passing. Evybody is always like you can do it but its so hard... I'm starting to think its impossible. The big question always on my mind nowadays what do i do if nursing doesn't work out? its just breaking my heart that i'm not good enough... a failure to my parents and to myself...I lose sleep and cry over this i just feel like i'm slowly losing my sanity a semester at a time...

Odd (Wo)man Out

Lately i feel like those r the words 2 describe me n its also the category i fit in... Its always been there but it was me holding my self back becuz of my shyness n lack of confidence in myself. But since i started college that has changed dramatically im more open, playful n definitely laugh a lot more im a totally different person.... So y am i still the odd ball evywhere i go? At home, at skool, at work even with my friends i feel like the lil sister that jus tags along unwanted. I'm 20 yrs old i thought these things would have worked themselves out by now...guess not :-(

I'm single not desperate (i stole that lol)

Now that all my friends have boyfriends or had boyfriends they feel it is their duty 2 get me one....YYYYY? idk if i look sad or lonely or they want me to feel included n not like the 3rd for 5th wheel. I dont mind being single HONESTY ppl its the way its been my whole life its my norm. Pls leave ur weirds guy friends, bf friends, cuzzins...away from me. Im not being picky u guys jus wont leave me alone. I ont even get started on my mom shes expecting for me 2 get married within the next 2yrs jus becuz she got married young...smh. So until which time a guy n i have mutual likeness 4 each other n he asks me out leave me alone!!! damn that felt good lol :-)

Another yr

So begins the drama of my college life...I jus did a full wk of skool n realized that I'm totally screwed but I'm gonna do my best god willing n kick ass this semester...I have 2 really hard classes n 2 not so bad class that I can't slack in...basically I'm a slave2 my books....

My social life is pretty much a mess 2...lol I mean my friends social lives mine has been pretty stable 4 a couple of yrs...new bf dramas, break ups n the fact that evybody around me thinks I'm soooo lonely being single they r trying 2 hook me up wit evybody n their brother smh...so as u probably guessed I'm back so heyyyy lol!

Dreams/Guys

Lately I been dreaming about guys nonstop lol...Does any body no wat this means? Cuz I haven't got a clue...Theres nothing frisky so get ur minds out the gutta lol. Its jus me either random guys flirting wit me or me flirting wit them but I always wake up before we ever get the chance 2 exchange numbers or go out. Usually my dreams r jus plan weird but now its either I subconciously like flirting, my single days r numbered or watever else u guys can think of lol...Its been going on for wks now can anybody help a sister out?

Summer time

My favorite time of the yr :-) the weather is nice n the guys r hot (most of the time at least lol) So far its been a good vacation been doing nothing but working,chilling n sleeping now this is the life lol...I finally got my dress for the engagement party that is this Saturday by the way. My shoes are banging if I do say so myself :-) I'm getting my eyebrows done 2mrw, my nail done Friday, my hair n make up on saturday...(at which point I will be broke lol) Ok this is gonna sound real nerdy u guys so don't judge me lol...I no I'm gonna look hot for the party not becuz of wat I mentioned above but becuz I'm ovulating lmao I no I actually pay attention in class lol...So wat ru guys up 2?

Skools out

N u no wat dat means? nothing I'll be dividing my time working and relaxing lol...Wat ru guys doing for the summer? Last summer i started this blog and i really like it this yr im hoping to do something else or a new hobby...any ideas? Maybe a summer romance wouldnt dat be great :-).... yea dats not happening so lets think of things dat r possible lol. It so good to be out of skool no deadlines or impending dooms lol, i would also like to mention dat i passed all of my classes yaaay me. 

I'm also so excited for my friend from skool as u guys no her shes getting married yaaaay...n she made me her maid of honor double yaaaay.I found the perfect dress for her engagement party but my boobies were like popping out of it n it was bordering hoochie. So i had 2 order a bigger from like a different state, i really hoping it looks as good cuz if it dont im gonna be really mad...so pray for me guys.