The whole world...

Is me or is the whole world out to get me i can't do anything right i'm not smart enough, pretty enough or tall enough....What is enough? because anything and everything i do can't possibly be it. Please enlighten my poor lost soul  because I AM LOST!!!!!! I am a lil angry at the moment sorry guys... as you can tell it hasn't been the best day :-P.

So I wanted to tell you guys that I got a new old car lol I named it charlie (i consider that name steady and reliable so hopefully charlie doesn't prove me wrong) he's a black nissan altima and he's the new (only...sigh) man in my life. Carlos was more of a bad boy so I've moved on to the sweet heart type lmao....

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Just once...

I want a decent guy that I actually like to walk up to and say :I noticed you around and seem like a nice person i'd really like to get to know maybe we could exchange numbers? (or i really want to get to know do you wanna go out sometime?) i'm just putting it out there lol...By the way i totally did a sucky job at my first nursing test not super bad but not excellent either in the 70's reign.  I'm carpooling with some classmates to clinical tell me why my car breaks down halfway there on the highway at 6 in the morning. So my dad rescues us and we make it on time but my car is shot smh poor Carlos :-( so now i'm carless (shopping for a car on a strict budget) not fun i feel like somebody cut off my legs. So there are 2 guys in my nursing class who I think are cute one in my clinical group who i actually say a few words to but theres always some girl riding his shlong lol so i don't think he's gonna go for super shy me. the other guy total eye candy and i have 2 classes with him :-D but theres still no hope but my eyes get plenty of candy lol

I'm sick :-(

You guys i'm sick and i need a nurse/doctor any takers?....No, i guess i need 2 do the job  myself :-P. So much going on these past couple of weeks i guess its all catching up 2 me. So much has happened in the span of 2 wks. One is i found out that I have periodontal disease or gingivitis. Its bitter sweet because it really does explain a lot, glad to finally no that its not all in my head and it sucks who wants a disease u no wat i mean... second skool has started 4 me once again got 2 admit i was kinda excited n i've had my first full wk of skool n i'm not dead yet lol but things can change very quickly so i'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts. 

Last but not least i went clubbing i think i did it right this time lol. It was n all black affair 4 one of my friend's birthday danced the nite away or kind of when my feet weren't hurting lol.  I danced with my friend n some random guy lol. i must say i think i was like the worst dancer there lmao n that is sad smh but i digress. Idid alot of observing as bad as thats sounds lol but i cant help it. It was so weird 2 actually have guys come up 2 me (not that we talked or anything) i was just flattered u no. One who i think was flat out drunk when i was about 2 leave called me over me being the goofball that i'm becomes a smiling fool lol. i nod or wat ever n tell him no thanks. He was there the whole nite didn't notice me at all but becuz i guess he thought he would leave alone or somethig n tried 2 reach out 2 me (wrong choice buddy lol). it was fun but i got home at 6am n had work at 8 am not my best idea but didn't think i would be out that late smh lol

Weavtastic

So got my first full head weave satuurday and it looks nice i can't complain right. The thing that gets 2 me, evybody is like you look so nice love ur hair, love ur dress and im grateful, who doesn't like 2 be complimented; Where are the compliments when my hair is natural? A lot of guys are always like i don't like weaves, weaves are this and that but they only checking the girls with the weaves :-P (where they do that at?) You say you want this and that but your actions go in the opposite direction lol actions speak louder then words,  I'm just saying...any thoughts?

Spa day

So i finally had my spa day on wednesday after getting a last minute appt the day of lol, because evybody that was invited bailed sucks for them :-P. So i went alone got lost 4 like 30mins but i finally made it and when i got there i was glad i went alone i didnt have to worry about anybody but myself. I got the citrus body scrub with the swedish massage 2 hrs worth. It was so worth it but the whole time i keep thinking i hope she doesnt choose this exact moment 2 turn into a lesbian lmao. Then after being totally relaxed i had 2 drive home which kind of sucked. it was fun though i totally have to do it again.

Me Journey

I have decided to go on a me journey. Its bettering myself thru positive thinking, gratefulness and fufillment. Its a journey to find myself because i didn't do it in my teen yrs like normal ppl lol. I started my journey unconsciously by just being happy this yr and so far 2012 has been so good to me. What a difference it has made gained confidence, will power and freedom. Imagine what i could do withe the rest of the yr skies the limit. The first major steps for me was cutting some ppl out one by one. If it hurts you more to be around someone as much as you like them or love them drop them like they hot lol. Not the easiest but definitely important. Another is gratefulness to be alive, for the most part healthy and for the little things. I'm grateful for my family, carlos (my car lol), that i have a job, my grandma is alive (thank god) and for a whole bunch other stuff. It balances out what you don't have right now. For the balance scale is pretty heavy on what i do have so why sweat the other stuff. Another thing is i been having alot of me time: reading things i like, watching my gmen kick booty (Go Giants!!! whoooo i digress lol) spending time with ppl who are worth it and going places i want to go. Like the spa i deserve a massage reason becuz i'm me or going to the beach, i'm simple person don't judge lol. I signed up to volunteer at an animal shelter becuz my parents wont let me adopt one (like a boss...I'm really feeling myself at the moment lol...mind out the gutter ppl gosh :-P ), don't let one obstacle stop your journey there are alternate routes. So when does your journey begin?