Me Journey

I have decided to go on a me journey. Its bettering myself thru positive thinking, gratefulness and fufillment. Its a journey to find myself because i didn't do it in my teen yrs like normal ppl lol. I started my journey unconsciously by just being happy this yr and so far 2012 has been so good to me. What a difference it has made gained confidence, will power and freedom. Imagine what i could do withe the rest of the yr skies the limit. The first major steps for me was cutting some ppl out one by one. If it hurts you more to be around someone as much as you like them or love them drop them like they hot lol. Not the easiest but definitely important. Another is gratefulness to be alive, for the most part healthy and for the little things. I'm grateful for my family, carlos (my car lol), that i have a job, my grandma is alive (thank god) and for a whole bunch other stuff. It balances out what you don't have right now. For the balance scale is pretty heavy on what i do have so why sweat the other stuff. Another thing is i been having alot of me time: reading things i like, watching my gmen kick booty (Go Giants!!! whoooo i digress lol) spending time with ppl who are worth it and going places i want to go. Like the spa i deserve a massage reason becuz i'm me or going to the beach, i'm simple person don't judge lol. I signed up to volunteer at an animal shelter becuz my parents wont let me adopt one (like a boss...I'm really feeling myself at the moment lol...mind out the gutter ppl gosh :-P ), don't let one obstacle stop your journey there are alternate routes. So when does your journey begin?

birthday don'ts

Let me start by saying my bday kind of sucked balls (excuse my french lol) it turned out to be the first day of my pd (too much info i no lol) but anyway i dont think my advil kicked in right and i had no peanut m&m's (which is by the way pd must haves 2 put me in a super happy hormone triggered state lol)....Anyway cramps and all i thought that i would go shopping and walk around for like 3 hrs worst mistake of my life if i do say so myself it shall not be repeated :-P...So i got a cute high low dress for a party labor day wkend yaay and some cute heels at payless (don't judge they cute lol).

 I had taken 4 days off for my bday cuz it was suppose to be like a wkend girls thing but things happen and well no more girls :-P. So it became more of a family thing. Friday night my sisters made me a cake it was a hot mess lmao happy birthday hardly legible written in caramel sauce lmao and I had my first full glass of red wine disgusting if i do say so myself, had no effect on me till the next morning when i slept thru a thunder storm and woke up at 12:30 on becuz of the phone thank god for my uncle lol. On sunday had the best dinner at P.F. Chang's ordered my first drink actually don't remember wat it was called but it too tasted bad and it had vodka i did get slightly buzz and got a headache. Gotta say i waited to drink cuz i thought it would change me or something but no its just bad tasting drinks that give me headaches and make me sleepy I DON'T GET ALL THE HYPE i'm just saying lol. 

I wanted my bday to be something special and i thought it would be me and my friends but it was me and family it made it that much more special. Friends come and go but you stuck with family why not enjoy them :-)

Birthday plans

So 2mrw is the big day my birthday... (yaaaaaaay lol) I have almost made it 2 my 21st bday and still a virgin in these times i've practically reach sainthood lmao jk jk. So my plans include but are not limited to : adventureland, red lobster (hmm biscuits yum), the spa, getting my eyebrows done and shopping whooo. I was trying to hit the club or something get my booty shaking on but things dont always go as planned so the booty shaking can wait a few wks lol. Now for my bday outfit i wanna look cute but i dont want to over do it. I want to wear my cute frilly dress but i'm having doubts about it or i might just wear my leo shirt with some shorts or something idk i'll let u guys no l8a... if ya good  might even put up a pic ;-) ;-) lol.

Friends

Right now friends are not really working out for me partly my fault partly theirs. I have gotten 2 the point in my life where i am jus cutting ppl off becuz it wasn't worth the pain they caused. Slowly but surely my friends are dropping like flies. Some of it hurt more then others some of it was unexpected n some came  as no surprise. So i'm on loner status once again n 2 be honest i don't mind at all :-) I feel free maybe i'll actually stick 2 my work out plan lol...So my 21st birthday in less then 2wks still have no idea wat i'm doing i jus hope its something fun n memorable.

Virgin Monologuez: Monologue Monday: Where My Girls At?!?!

Totally been practicing this advice all yr gotta say i'm a happy person becuz of it :-) Virgin Monologuez: Monologue Monday: Where My Girls At?!?!: Surrounding yourself with a good group of girls is so important! For the longest time this was something that I didn’t really pay that mu...