Nursing the journey

So my friend from skool who i met in class the first day of college in 09 has officially left nursing after 2 yrs of blood sweat n tears. She switched her major to social work. Well i'm sad that we won't continue n finish this journey together... but you gotta do wat makes u happy. To be honest i neva felt so alone as u can see by my out burst "I'm done". Last semester i went thru so much with my nursing classes but knowing i wasn't alone always eased the pain, but that is no more i  am on my own now officially.This is like a major let down one of many 2 be honest. Although i no its bad to go backwards i cant help myself these past few yrs i been coming out my shell n its not helping that i'm constantly disappointed. I feel like i was fine b4 wen i was in turtle mode i didn't need anybody. So as a safety mechanism  i going back 2 it.Maybe i come out after college idk...

I'm done

I'm really tired of putting myself out there getting comfortable with a person jus so that person leaves one way or another.Either that be friends or other wise... I no ppl r suppose 2 come n go in ur life its part of the "adventure" n growing up, but im tired of it, seriously. I'm tired of the disappointments, the hurt n the stress. Im going thru enough dealing wit skool. So from now on im on lockdown mode... I don't want new friends, family or watever... At this point, im jus passing thru, don't notice me at all...

Wrestling

I grew up on wrestling n spent many a nights being terrorized by my older cuzzins about the different characters. Over the the yrs I have continued this love hate relationship. Cheering on the good guys n sometimes the bad guys. After so long of being entertained by these great human beings i've come to realize now wat they put their bodies thru each n evy wk for our entertainment. You see the stories in the news every couple of yrs of one of these super stars dying unfortunate deaths there primes. Not even hitting the age of 50. 

The common denominators seem to be suicide, overdose (usually steroids and/or cocaine)  or heart attacks. The steroids i think seem to play a major role in all three forms of death. They wanna be stronger, faster and bigger based on our demands (the public) of what real "men" should look like, act like. Which is totally unrealistic, these r human beings, wit families, wit kids. If u go to the gym daily n don't look all beef up n juiced up, y should they? They shape their bodies on the images of what "we" want don't u think its time we changed wat a "man' looks like?

Then there r the overdoses. Always trying to get the better stuff, the stronger stuff. For some it was about the high. Mixing different things to try to get the better look and the best high. The others it was about beating the competition. All in all they reached that ultimate high that they wont come back from. 

Not to mention wat it does to the brain. The roid rage, the aggression and the suicide. All of those hormones from the steroids messes wit the chemistry in their brains not to mention the numerous concussions. A perfect example of this is one of the best wrestlers of all time hands down chris benoit (god rest his soul). If u looked at his brain there was so much scar tissue and holes.

How can a human being function properly wen his brain looks like this?

Now for the matters of the heart attacks another great wrestler Eddie guerrero aka "latino heat" (may he also  rest in peace). Steroids r hormones that make the muscles bigger.Ur heart is also a muscle the biggest muscle u have .It can only pump so much n get so big eventually its gonna burn out. Put on top of that if u already had a heart condition, the odds r not in ur favor. Take a look at wat "we" is doing to family men, brothers,fathers and husbands. Is it worth it?

Surprise party

Omg  saturday was crazy. We had a surprise party for one of my bffs. First we had 2 figure out where we were gonna have it, then food, music, drinks all while not letting her no, which was really hard. Tell me y i also had 2 pick like evyones gift for her like im some kind of expert (not)...It was all worth it she was so surprised and had no clue...The look on her face was priceless... She started crying so then i decided 2 tell her we love her, n that this time we actually mean it lol... Wat did u guys do the wkend? Did i mention that i was on springbreak this wk? Woooo im gonna sleep like its 1999 lol.

T.A.

Hi my name is collegegerlz n i am a technology addict... Lol in the past couple of yrs i become obsessed wit tech it started with my fone n digital camera. Last yr i got my laptop (which is my baby by the way lol)  This yr its the kindle by Amazon.com i loooooovvvve it...(Did i mention that i love it) Its like a library in the palm of my hand. No longer do i have 2 go 2 the library look for new books or put things on hold, it comes 2 me in less than 60 secs in the privacy of my own home or skool or anywhere that has wifi lol. It also has games which i haven't tried yet to wrapped up in my books but also internet (its not the best but i can check my email n go on facebook if need be) It holds like 3000 books so no longer do i have 2 look like a librarian walking around with so many books. Its the best invention for a bookworm like me.  So am i the only one?

Hey guys i'm back

I'm back yaaaay lol...I took a lil break n had some me time...But can i jus say i miss u guys, all the input n ideas really give my life a different perspective...

With that being said lol... how do u guys feel about online dating? With all the buzz n the pop up of new sites almost weekly on facebook n wat not, wat do u guys think? Is it safe? thats my number one concern? Wat is  the age limit? R they worth the money u pay?

To answer a few of these questions i did a lil experiment. I have been on four sites using various names...The sites include zoosk, koopa, eharmony, and cupidplay. Can i jus say Do NOT waste ur money...In my opinion zoosk,koopa n cupidplay is really for the younger ppl my age not 2 say it wont work for older ppl (maybe that could be my next experiment lol) they jus seems 2 attract a younger crowd n a few old pervs here n there (who u can block by the way greatest internet invention ever)  but anyway i would give my top rating for koopa evybody on the site seems generally nice. Although u do have 2 look at the profiles some ppl on there r jus looking 4 one night stands. Others were really nice n generally wanted 2 get 2 know new ppl. Eharmony which is so popular with ppl now a days didn't really do it for me on all the other sites i at least had a convo with one person even if i didn't keep talking 2 them in the end. Hey, but don't take my opinion 4 it try it out urself. All in all i didn't get all the answers that i wanted but i did find out that online dating wasn't for me...If u guys have had better luck then me with this let me know, i'm all about a good story :-)